All of us are given birth by our mother. A person whom should love you with all her heart. But in some unfortunate cases, mothers decide to give away their children due to many reasons. But the bond is forged at some point of time...
What I am trying to say is that all of us experience love right from the start. It comes from all size and shapes. Admiration, envy, kindness, care, jealousy and even hatred...
I am a person whom emotions ruled over my logical thinkings. I let my feelings take lead. I always yearn for all the wonderful and fanciful things to happen to me. But sometimes, even myself don't get what I want.
I experience love in all kind of ways. Friends who love you for who you are, mother whom can't seems to sleep well when you are out late and your phone can't get through, father who is always too proud to say that he cares when actually he is very much worried about you...
But why do I still feel like I am missing a part of something. Yes, thats the love of your life. Someone who is so special that they will eventually become the most important thing in your life... more important than your own life.
I always think that I will get to know this person at some point of time. But I get more and more wearied as time goes by. It is like this person don't want to meet me at all...
Throughout my 21 years of life, I have never been satisfied with the things that I have. I wanted more every time. But what I really want is a person to be called my own...
I give advices to people regarding their love life. I open up their views, give them comments and let them see the options there are to their problems. It is as though I know all about their troubles. But the truth is, I am just trying to be in their shoe, trying to experience what they are going through and imagine I am them. Because I don't get to be like them... I never experience their problems because I was never in love.
Who am I to even get them advice? Why will they come to me with their problems? Who am I to them? What do they want from me...
I can't remember when was the last time I felt like this... but this doesn't feel good at all. Especially today is the last day of 2010... why do I feel lonelier than ever.
