I will always hold on to the 5 words most important in my life...
I Am What I Am
去爱吧，就像不曾受过伤一样
Go ahead and love, like you have never been hurt
跳舞吧，像没有人会欣赏一样
Go ahead and dance, like nobody will appreciate
唱歌吧，像没有人会聆听一样
Go ahead and sing, like nobody will listen
干活吧，像是不需要金钱一样
Go ahead and work, like you don't need the money
生活吧，就像今天是末日一样
Go ahead and live, like there is no tomorrow...
when life does something that is this horrible,
there are no rules as to how to get over it...
one just have to do what ever he can, anything he can to make it better...
Wednesday, December 24, 2008
but while others cloaked themselves in sinister and gave in to empathy,
we must be unafraid to hope...
hope is the simplest of words,
but the hardest thing to have....
Tuesday, December 23, 2008
刷牙我想哭 洗脸我想哭
走路我想哭 静止我想哭
出太阳我想哭 起风我想哭
听歌我想哭 看喜剧我想哭
我控制不住自己 负担冭重的情绪
我拒绝面对结局 沉重的问题我不想听
伱给的很多规矩 说了很久的道理
却瞒不了我的伈
再压抑 再压抑 我快不行..
(兲摇地动 昏天暗地)
有眼泪 没眼泪
伱觉得我疯了
我瞬间耳鸣 听不见伱们说的
我疯言 我疯语 眼泪让我瞎了
我哭我眼前丗界
原来快楽要用悲伤换的
可知不知道
伱莂在否认
我要的自由能不能够永生
可是我累了
我只好哭了
我像疯子的般不停的哭
我没有出路
伱也当我是个疯子 我是个疯子
Monday, December 22, 2008
Didn't thought it will be over like this...
You became far...
I am startled by the sudden rush of emotions...
Nothing will ever be the same...
Gone forever...
i am sorry... i guess i never did ever blame myself for all the problems that arise... but instead throw everything to you... it must have been a heavy burden... with other things you have along the way...
no use saying much now... u have broken down... so have i...
Tuesday, December 16, 2008
Seriously... I hate studying... =="
anyway, I have been watching a new drama lately... and I AM LOVING IT!! Oh my god...
Brothers & Sisters
This show is AWESOME!! I don't know why... but it touches me in every single way. I could cry every other episodes. The story is so real (as in original) and all American. Makes me wanna be there in America. LOL! Upon watching it, it makes me feel lonely... hahaha... I was hoping I had a family like theirs... One so crazy and yet so loving. Everything they do are for each other... sigh.
*I am so gonna leave Singapore one day... to go search afar... to find a place which I really belongs.
Saturday, December 13, 2008
Do you remember the last time we got differences knocking on our doors?
It is not too long ago... where both of us cried in frustration and anger and disappointment and sadness...
i was hoping that will be the last time we ever need to be like that...
Obviously, it is not the case. We had too much differences as far as you are concern. You can bring something up, making me feel all terrible and let go of it the very next moment... questioning about why am I making a fuss out of it. Offering your help when you don't even want me to help you out with the problem you brought up. And the way you say it makes me feel like you are the great one, to be able and want to help me through everything. Where in my case, I will let you go whenever you don't want my help. It is like saying you will not leave me and not care about me while I will let you to die...
i hate to quarrel and feel sad and angry and disappointed and frustrated and depressed all at once... but i had this not once, not twice but so many times...
Once or twice, a person can let it go... continue living, being happy... but the more these problems come swarming into our lives, the more difficult it is to let myself let go. Not that I want to hold on the these grudges, but I can't help but feel really really dejected these things keep happening...
you ask me how long I want this to goes on... what can you do to help me... I got no answer for you... because the moment I let this goes, another problem would probably arise the very next week... or even the next few days...
I hate to have this feelings every now and then... shouldn't happiness be the only thing that should happens or matters in a relationship? I felt it before... but probably like you said, "2 different worlds nearing each others and destorying each other via each other's gravity."
We are destroying each other right now...
I am actually feeling... I don't exactly knows what I am feeling right now.
This emotion which I never had felt for so long that I wonder if I ever had this feeling before. I don't think I like this feeling at all... not one that I can say that I will get use to... not this feeling.
Everything seems colder than ever. My house with nobody in it. My body without a soul. My heart that lost its need... and you.
I guess I am really sad to know that I won't be the reason for you to want to stay... but instead wanted to leave even more... now I know I can't even be compared to your music.
Yea... I am an ignorant bastard who don't know what is happening around me. I am just too self-centered to notice anything. A person that you can't possibly share anything with. A person that is totally useless in your life... I don't think I can even be compared to your friends. People whom you will be totally happy with... nothing to think about, nothing to be stressed about, nothing to be embarrass about, nothing to be scare about and most importantly, nothing to be ashamed or having the need to hide.
so if I died one day without leaving any trace... will you know why I die?
"Once the well is dried up, no matter how good your rope or your bucket is, you won' t be able to draw any water up. You'll have to either
1. Wait for the next raining season (longer) or
2. Fill it up yourself so that you can use it whenever you want to..."
and 3. Give up any hope that the well will ever have any water and look for another source...
*i am really trying my best in this relationship... and I can't give you any more love that I am already giving... you won't tell me what to do... and I am at my wits' end...
*i am really tired too... of you keep bringing up problems which I never thought existed... and if you can't see through all these problems you have with the relationship or me or even yourself, I really don't think you will ever be happy...
Friday, December 12, 2008
Meet the Robinsons
10:36 PM
Around here, however, we don't
look backwards for very long.
We keep moving forward, opening up new doors and
doing new things, because we're curious...
And curiosity keeps leading us down new paths.
Walt Disney
Awww... I just watched Meet The Robinsons and I am loving it. The story is really nice... with this sayings at the end, it makes the whole movie very meaningful. The song at the end of the show is well... emotional. I happen to come across this song earlier before watching this movie and has some "not so nice" experience with it. But now that I watched the show and listen to the song at the same time, I couldn't help but have tears welling up my eyes. Wonders why I got so emotional... but it is in a good way.
*you can find the song on my playlist, Rob Thomas - Little WondersLittle Wonders
Let it go
Let it roll right off your shoulder
Don't you know
The hardest part is over
Let it in
Let your clarity define you
In the end
We will only just remember how it feels
Our lives are made
In these small hours
These little wonders
These twists and turns of fate
Time falls away,
But these small hours
These small hours
Still remain
Let it slide
Let your troubles fall behind you
Let it shine,
Till you feel it all around you
And I don't mind
If it's me you need to turn to
We'll get by
It's the heart that really matters in the end
Our lives are made
In these small hours
These little wonders
These twists and turns of fate
Time falls away
But these small hours
These small hours
Still remain
All of my regret
Will wash away somehow
But I cannot forget
the way I feel right now
In these small hours
These little wonders
These twists and turns of fate
Yeah, these twisted turns of fate
Time falls away
Yeah, but these small hours,
These small hours
Still remain
Yeah, oh they still remain
These little wonders
All these twists and turns of fate
Time falls away
But these small hours
These little wonders
Still remain
CBOX Upgrade
6:08 PMPeople, I have upgraded my CBOX to premium... ==" It is for fun la... lol
now you all can registered ur name in my CBOX...
1. Type in ur name in the name box
2. Press the profile button on the bottom right of the box
3. It will prompt u to register
4. Input ur password
5. Ta-Daa! Ur name is protected on my CBOX! Nobody else can imitate ur name!!
Lol.. if u're registered user, ur name also have a different colour... cool huh? =="
Thursday, December 11, 2008
New skin
11:44 PMHeh heh... Kinda long before I last post. Gotten lazy... lazier! =X
Well, I have gotten a nice blogskin as all can see... and obviously Rees is not so talented to the extent to make this himself. LOL! XD I got this from Blogskins.com and I really love it. Can't really be bothered to do a whole new skin myself. **LAZY**
Anyway, hopefully, the new skin will make me wanna blog more... and yes, this blog can be view in FireFox now. (People, stop complaining that it is troublesome to view my blog kies! [the main reason is cause Rees is using FireFox now too... =X] )
Hmmm... study... not! I know, I know... Common Test is next thursday, which can come sooner than I thought. I tried to study already can? Lol... Previous time is super last minute one! I try to start la... AHAHAHAHAHAHA!!
*Yawn... tired + lazy + sleepy = Rees =3