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Thursday, June 25, 2009

there's no me without you

5:13 PM

Been sometime I introduce songs to my blog. Well, here is one that I find really nice. It's by Ashley Tisdale... Me Without You. I find her singing really well in this second album of hers, Guilty Pleasure. Going through all the songs from this album as compared to the previous one, there is a huge improvement in voice and overall quailty of the song. I seems to be enjoying all the songs this time round.

Here's the song that I really like. Dedicated to my Darling... ^^ Muack!

Ashley Tisdale - Me Without You

Lyric

It's just you and me

And there's no one around

Feel like I'm hanging by a thread

It's a long way down

I've been trying to breathe

But I'm fighting for air

I'm at an all time low

With no place to go

But you're always there

When everything falls apart

And it seems like the world

Is crashing at my feet

You like me the best

When I'm a mess

When I'm my own worst enemy

You make me feel beautiful (beautiful)

When I have nothing left to prove

And I can't imagine

How I'd make it through

There's no me without you

No me without you, no no

You hear what I say

When I don't say a word

You are my rising sun

You're the place I run

You know how it hurts

When everything falls apart

And it seems like the world

Is crashing at my feet

You like me the best

When I'm a mess

When I'm my own worst enemy

You make me feel beautiful (beautiful)

When I have nothing left to prove

And I can't imagine

How I'd make it through

There's no me without you

No me without you

There's no me without you

No me without you

And when you say 'baby, it's gonna get better'

I believe you

And I wish that somehow I could see me

The way you do

With my imperfections

You think I'm perfect

When it's not easy

You make it worth it

When everything falls apart

And it seems like the world

Is crashing at my feet

You like me the best

When I'm a mess

When I'm my own worst enemy

You make me feel beautiful (beautiful)

When I have nothing left to prove

And I can't imagine

How I'd make it through

There's no me without you

No me without you, no no

No me without you (no me without you)

No me without you, no no (no me without you), no

Tuesday, June 23, 2009

and here I am still not moving

1:03 AM

Dear you,

"Thinking big but acting small, is the same as thinking small.

Shiver me timbers.

Reading this and nodding in wholehearted agreement, but not doing a little acting "as if your dreams have come true" in the days that follow, is the same as not reading this."

yours sincerely,

More Notes from the Universe

Page 67

*The phrase "Shiver me timbers" is commonly used by pirates meaning "shock" or "sudden surprise," as the wooden masts or timbers of a ship would quake when the ship was hit by a cannonball, or if the ship suddenly ran aground or hit an unsuspecting object.

Sunday, June 21, 2009

Life, Dreams and Happiness

3:31 AM

I spent $10 to buy this book "More Notes from the Universe" from the Book Clearance sale outside Plaza Singapura entrance today. It is an interesting book with many easy to read notes about life, dreams and happiness. Don't know what got me to pick up the book and actually flip through the pages. Perhaps the beautiful cover and pages... perhaps by chances I notice it in the mess of books. But I am happy I got it. I will share some of the notes now and then, especially the interesting ones. To start off, I would share this with you all.

Dear you,

"Fear just means you've forgotten how deeply you're loved, how safe you are, and that happiness will return, like you've never known it before. It doesn't change these things."

yours sincerely,

More Notes from the Universe

Page 92

Thursday, June 18, 2009

I wish upon...

12:29 AM

1. HP Pavilion p6098d Home PC ($1999)

2. HTC Touch Diamond 2 ($828)

3. Nikon D90 ($1500)

4. Fred Perry Shoes ($?)

5. Sims 3 ($56.90)

6. Left 4 Dead 2 (Due Nov 17 2009)

7. Sony Playstation 3 ($535)

8. Nintendo Wii ($278)

9. Sony PSP Slim Lite ($285)

Monday, June 15, 2009

Zombies...

1:38 AM

Talking about zombies, I could only remember Left 4 Dead. But Darling introduce me to this song by The Cranberries, Zombie. I thought it would be a "funny" song or just another band song. But no, I find it so emotional as it talks about war and violence... The lead singer is awesome, she has such a unique voice and... well, just listen and you know.

The Cranberries - Zombie

Another head hangs lowly

Child is slowly taken

And the violence causes silence

Who are we mistaken?

But you see, it’s not me

It’s not my family

In your head, in your head

They are fightin’!

With their tanks, and their bombs

And their bombs, and their guns

In your head, in your head

They are cryin!

In your head! In your head!

Zombie! Zombie! Zombie,hey,hey,hey!

What’s in your head, in your head?

Zombie! Zombie! Zombie hey,hey,hey,oh dou, dou, dou,dou dou...

Another mother’s breaking

Heart is taken over.

When the violence causes silence

We must be mistaken.

It’s the same old theme

Since 1916!

In your head, in your head

They’re still fightin’!

With their tanks, and their bombs

And their bombs, and their guns

In your head, in your head!

They are dyin’!

In your head! In your head!

Zombie! Zombie! Zombie,hey, hey,hey

What’s in your head, in your head?

Zombie! Zombie! Zombie hey, hey, hey, hey,oh, oh, oh, oh,oh, oh, oh, hey, oh, ya, ya-a!

Saturday, June 13, 2009

dying from the inside...

11:42 PM

Do you know about this feeling...?

Its like when people around you are all happy and lively, while you are the only one who feels sorry for yourself...

You are agonising in your own sorrow.

You are trap within your own hell.

You are seemingly fine... but actually you want to die.

People would ask "How are you? Are you okay?"... It seems as though they care, but seriously the answer they want from you is... "I'm fine."

They would then accept that answer from you and move on... while you are still feeling the same way as before.

What if for a change... you say, "No, I am not okay." How will they react...?

To be honest... I don't know how to describe my feelings. I don't know how to say them out even when people do ask. I don't know how to help myself... how can I let others help me?

Mum ask me why am I so moody? And all I have for her was a slight raise with my eyebrows... I may even fake a smile. So this stop her from asking... stop her from knowing. And she would never really get to know me...

Maybe all I wanted was attention... but when I get them, I don't know how to react to them.

Maybe all I needed was care... but when I get them, I don't know if they are true.

I am so complicated. I know it myself. I was never easy and I never will be.

It is so easy to know what mood do I have. I talk a lot when I am happy but never will make a sound when I am not. But people don't seems to notice that... for some reasons. Probably I get depressed too easily till people can't be bothered to care about me... maybe.

I can't seems to get happy any way... no matter what I focus on, at the end of the day I would still be back to my depressed self. The irritating, problematic and highly emotional self. Sometimes I get so tired of being like this. Even I find myself troublesome to be deal with. So I keep quiet about it. Let myself handle it. And nobody will know what exactly I am feeling. I guess by doing this, people around me will be happier because they can move on with their life without having to focus energy on me... "Just let him be..."

Just be quiet about it... and soon everything will be over.

People don't need to know about it... and they can still be your friends.

Keeping it to myself... and at the end of the day only I suffer.

I am tired of crying...

tired of trying...

and even though I am smiling...

inside of me is dying...

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

Unlimited craving... Rees' greed

9:40 PM

Jolin Tsai - Butterfly Jolin

Hmmm... I would say luck has been with me these few weeks? Never had I won any lucky draw or things like that before and I won 2 music albums this time. One is from teens and the other is from a website. I won Jolin Tsai's Butterfly Jolin deluxe edition album from teens while The Saturdays new album, Chasing Lights from the website. Kinda cool to actually receive emails saying that you won something.

The Saturdays - Chasing Lights

Does this means lady luck is around me? I want to get a new desktop PC for a while now... but have no luck in convincing my mum to actually let me get one. Hopefully I can find some really good deal tomorrow at the PC Show at Suntec City and I can get one PC soon. This may be the last material thing I wish for before I enlist. Really want to get it... really.

Tuesday, June 02, 2009

Unconventional Ritual

2:31 AM

"... and I was the mom, Kevin was the dad. Well, because that is what our family looks like so that is all we knew. And now, here we are at Kevin's second wedding and the rules are different and things that we thought to be true turn out not to be. And it seems that when we give up on what was, well, that is when things that we thought improbable or impossible even happens right before your eyes."

----Kitty McCallister