I will always hold on to the 5 words most important in my life...
I Am What I Am
去爱吧，就像不曾受过伤一样
Go ahead and love, like you have never been hurt
跳舞吧，像没有人会欣赏一样
Go ahead and dance, like nobody will appreciate
唱歌吧，像没有人会聆听一样
Go ahead and sing, like nobody will listen
干活吧，像是不需要金钱一样
Go ahead and work, like you don't need the money
生活吧，就像今天是末日一样
Go ahead and live, like there is no tomorrow...
Carrie Underwood's 2nd album is out yesterday!! and yea, i got hold of it as soon as i enter the cd shop... lol... my eye caught the album the second i step into the cd shop and i am overwhelmed... LOL!! cuz i didnt thought that her album will be release in singapore the same day as America... so i am damn happy when i saw it... lol... i am enjoying the whole album man... super nice... and this song playing in my blog now is one of my favourite... Just A Dream...
Saturday, October 20, 2007
did some editing to this pic... and i realli like the outcome... wahahahaha... forever friends!! ^^ lai yee, me and bee... and this is the first grp photo i edited... i look like a vender selling the five heads below lar... LOL!! so fun~ and heres a picture on my own~ i did the editing... and make some glow ard the shadow... lol... i think it look cool... hahaha... after all this cam whoring... we went to the toilet cuz some of the girls wanna go toilet for a very long time le... lol... by now... my nose is going crazy le... for the whole night... i have been sneezing and the muscus water keep flowing down... actually is for the whole day le... in the morning have been very tired cuz of this... feeling sick... but aft lunch then feel better le... and now okay le... needed rest only... ya... then i needed lots of tissue mah... and i run out of them very quickly... so i took toilet paper from the cubicle... lol... and whenever i needed tissue ah... i like drawing toliet paper out from my bag liddat... look so cheap lar... hahahaha... after the toilet break... we go 7-11 buy drinks and go to the arcade... where i go para after a super long time... and i sucks!! cannot coordinate well leh... but also maybe cuz i feeling sick... yar... then last song i let ah ma play... and lai yee go choose "My Sweet Banana" this song for her... cuz she like banana... but that song is not easy at all lor... i will have difficulty too lor... lol... then ah ma like doing exercise liddat... hahahaha...
went to celebrate pong pa's birthday ytd.. haha.. her bday is on the 14th.. but didnt get to celebrate for her then.. so we celebrate it for her ytd.. the plan is everybody bring something to eat there.. POTLUCK.. so aft sch.. bee sim, ah ma, serene and me go to square 2 to buy a cake then bring to vivo to meet suhua there.. we went to giant to buy some more food then head to the grand stand there to sit.. let me list down all the things we brought:there you go... hahahaha... its funny watching her sweep her hand all over the place... lol... then while i am para-ing... suhua and lai yee took some realli cool picture... which i make them even cooler... LOL!!1. big loaf of bread2. 200g of breakfast (or is it picnic?) ham3. 2 packets of cheese4. 6 packets of milo drink5. mocha birthday cake6. fried kway tiao7. $3 but super big packet of hokkien mee (fried prawn noodle)8. deep-fried dumplings (many of them)9. 1 whole honey coated chickenhows that? -.- lol.. sooooo many foods lar... hahaha... at first we didnt know suhua will buy item 6 to 8 de... so we bought chicken and the bread... then in the end... too many foods... XD but good lar... everybody super food... hahaha...
heres a picture of us with our foods... -.- look quite messy hor? hahaha... but we have fun eating together leh!! after finishing our food ah... CAM WHORING TIME!! lol... took soooo many photos lar... but let me post those that i have done editing to them bah...
LOL!!! this shot is perfect lor!! lol... it is realli instant de... ah ma taking the shot... then bee & suhua are posing for it... after ah ma count to 3 ah... i juz throw my leg out and lai yee throw the tissue paper out... then it came out like this... i laughing like hell lar... cuz sooooo damn accurate lor... LOL!!.jpg)
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dunno wad to call it... so i give it a random name of shadow union... lol... am lurving this picture lor... hahaha... starting from the shadow on the left... ah ma, lai yee, su hua, pong pa, bee & me... hahahaha... so cool right?.jpg)
and this is my current wallpaper on my laptop le... wahahahaha... in lurve with this picture... lol... everyone is shot alone... lol... so cool.... ^^.jpg)
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i crop out some bit of the photo... and make it even darker... so only lai yee's face is the distinct thing here... wahahaha...+(edited).jpg)
as for suhua's pic... i only make it blue-er... cuz if i make it darker... i will look weird cuz her hand is on her face... so if i only show her face... it will seems as if her head is floating...do they look cool? wahahahaha... so proud of myself... -.-realli lurve this 2 picture lor... sooo damn cool sia... cuz its blue... wahahahaha...we then went over to some other places... and took some more photos of cuz.. lol... but didnt do any editing to them yet... cuz today only wake up at 1.40pm... have my lunch and did editing to some of this photos.. and watch America's Next Top Model cycle 9 from youtube... then later went to toa payoh with parents...the medicine i ate ytd nite ah... is super strong lor... very very slpy after i ate it... then today morning still super tired... and now... i am feeling super tired again... the eyelids are super heavy... -.- think i gonna go slp soon bah...
Wednesday, October 17, 2007
got to listen to a new song by Ella from hui xian today.. dont think the song is new.. juz that i didnt know abt this song only.. its called 蔷蔷(qiang qiang) which is the name of Ella's dog.. this song is written for her dog.. which had pass away.. the song is very meaning and you can feel Ella's love for her dog.. i dont call it sad bah.. juz realli touching.. heres the MV for the song..
to stop the background music from my blog, juz press esc button or the stop button..
today went back to NUH for lecture.. sigh.. still so boring as ever.. -.- i ate quite something today.. i have the cripsy carrot cake which i miss alot in the morning.. then the bulk of us went to NUS for lunch.. i ate mee hoon kueh.. and i put in chilli wor.. lol.. i sooooo long didnt have my hot soup le lor.. and yea.. i feel itchy after eating.. but its not realli bad.. lol.. guess i didnt put alot into it bah.. i realli have sensitive skin wor.. sigh.. then i have banana milk.. wahahaha.. they didnt put enough banana bah.. or the banana not sweet enough.. lol.. cuz the drink not sweet de leh.. a bit blend for me.. cuz i have had nicer banana milk before.. but i forgot where i have it.. dang.. x.x anyway.. talking abt banana.. i had chocolate banana waffle yesterday at square 2.. bought it from buttercup.. is a bakery which sell lots of interesting waffle and crepe.. there are muffins as well.. oh ya.. i had the Q Q rice ball alrdy.. hahaha.. its nice.. cuz u got to choose 5 different ingredient you wan.. but the rice ball a bit small for me leh.. lol.. not filling.. lucky i had that waffle.. haha..
alrite.. tmr is back to TTSH again.. and i will be sorting all the different specimens again.. cuz i am at the central processing lab.. i am with hwee ing.. my mother.. lol.. bee sim.. un-glam girl.. lol.. and finally ming jian.. enthu guy.. wahahaha.. its fun there.. but kind of tiring cuz we got no chair! -.- cannot sit de.. keep on standing ard.. but gd lar.. at least got things to do.. and can talk talk ard.. wahahahaha..
Monday, October 15, 2007
today is another one of those kind of days which i realli feel like killing myself...
today realli start out well.. although everyone is tired.. but everybody is still enjoying their first day in tan tock seng.. and i realli enjoy it as well.. but i always have to find reason to let me ruin my own day......
i am a happy person.. as in i can smile easily.. and laugh at every single small thing happening around me.. but why wld someone like this have to get depress at every single small thing as well? i realli hated myself when this happens.. i am not an obtimistic person.. and clearly a pessimist.. but why do i have to see every personal problem as something so big.. something so dreadful.. something which can kill.. i can say all sorts of wonderful things to help ppl get past their problem.. and in some cases convince ppl that things aren't that bad.. but why can't i do that to myself? why do i have to make my own life so difficult?
clearly.. i have problem living with myself.. i hated this guy.. i guess thats why ppl feel the same way..
i am never someone memorable.. i am never important to anyone......
i have never done anything impressive.. i have never done anything which i can be proud of......
nobody remember what i had done before.. nobody appreciate what i had done.......
i think back.. and i guess ppl dont care who i am to them.. cuz my presence realli doesnt bother anyone........
Sunday, October 14, 2007
sigh... i guess everybody is very very sian at this point of time. hahaha! sch reopen tmr!! T.T soooo very reluctant to go back to study. sigh~ but cant help it right? i got no choice but to follow what i have to do for now. well, at least i am excited to meet everyone again! to joke ard, laugh and gossip our time away when it gets too boring. hahahaha. but i guess everybody worry abt the "new" grping we are appointed to. some ppl long for a change in the grping. but some love it the way it is. i love the grp i am in. with jacinthe neh and beeee. haha. i realli wanna work with both of them still. but if we really got to be split up, i guess we cant defy that order as well. no use thinking too much into all this now. cuz i will get the answer tmr. in another 12 hrs. omg. i am still not realli prepared to go back to studying sia. but at the same time, i am realli happy i can get out of the hse every morning and back home only in the evening. this means that i will have lesser chance to have any conflict with anyone in the hse. but this is wad i think lar. maybe if sometime after i came home, i got tired and i still have to entertain to something... then i will go crazy. lol...
its to tan tock seng hospital this semester. which is so much nearer to my hse now. super duper happy. lol!! only have to go back to nuh every wednesday. realli hope it will be fun in tan tock seng. cuz thats wad we heard frm senior and SK. they say its fun there and senior love it there. well... realli hope so. but when we first visit tan tock seng for orientation before sch ended, it feel realli tight in tan tock seng. the lab dun have windows. and the ceiling is low. make me feel realli constricted. and its kind of scary. i dont have a phobia for tight spaces... but am thinking... if i have to spend the whole day in that kind of places, i may go crazy! lol... especially if one feel stress and pressurized. SIGH~ there i go again... worrying abt every single thing even before i go into it. well... i will stop here then... =X and i realli hope i still will come back to blog... =P i may get lazy once sch started... LOL!!
Thursday, October 11, 2007
WOO HOO!!! I GOT SCOLDED AGAIN FOR NOTHING!!! HOW GREAT IS THAT!!?? BLOODY FUCK UP!!! WOOOOOOOO~
this is so damn fuck up lar... i wonder time to time... why do i have to go through all this... why do i deserve all this fuck... do i have a cheap life? or the ppl in there is playing a fool with me... whatever that i have become... is not wad i chose to be... i did think before... if i am not this person that i am... will i be happier? will my life be simpler? i dont know the fucking answer... i am too tired to think abt these fuck up things alrdy... i am tired of crying in the night... i am tired of being the one not noticed at all... i am tired of everything around me... and i am actually tired of living... how sick is that?
Tuesday, October 09, 2007
was suppose to finish up this blogskin ytd de... but then bro cut the internet access when he goes to slp... -.- lol... he go off the modem lar... cuz the previous nite... i forgot to off it... then think he got piss so he off without asking me if i still nid to use it ytd night... hahahaha... =.= anyway... this is my new skin le~ am i dont think i will change it again anytime soon le bah... cuz sch is starting... and i realli like the idea of this skin... sigh~
this song is realli nice oh... Innocence by Avril Lavigne...
Waking up I see that everything is ok
The first time in my life and now it's so great
Slowing down I look around and I am so amazed
I think about the little things that make life great
I wouldn't change a thing about it
This is the best feeling
This innocence is brilliance, I hope that it will stay
This moment is perfect, please don't go away, I need you now
And I'll hold on to it, don't you let it pass you by
I found a place so safe, not a single tear
The first time in my life and now it's so clear
Feel calm I belong, I'm so happy here
It's so strong and now I let myself be sincere
I wouldn't change a thing about it
This is the best feeling
This innocence is brilliance, I hope that it will stay
This moment is perfect, please don't go away, I need you now
And I'll hold on to it, don't you let it pass you by
It's the state of bliss you think you're dreaming
It's the happiness inside that you're feeling
It's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry
It's the state of bliss you think you're dreaming
It's the happiness inside that you're feeling
It's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry
It's so beautiful it makes you want to cry
This innocence is brilliance, it makes you want to cry
This innocence is brilliance, please don't go away
`Cause I need you now
And I'll hold on to it, don't you let it pass you by
This innocence is brilliance, I hope that it will stay
This moment is perfect, please don't go away, I need you now
And I'll hold on to it, don't you let it pass you by
sigh... i always thot i cld be great by myself... but the fact is... i am not facing the facts... i am escaping from it...
i lie to myself... hoping it wld be better... and i think i still have to continue this way...
Monday, October 08, 2007
went out to vivo with shuan, chang yuan, guan hao and ming jian today... ITS 1M06's BOYS' OUTING!! lol XD anyway... we went to vivo in da morning... at first there are onli me, mj and shuan... gh at first not coming de... cuz he EMO... haiz... poor thing... my foot ah... LOL!!! he said before lor... emo ish for guys to act like girls... lalalala... he himself also... BAHHHHHH~ ~.~ lol... anyway... he still came in the end... we went to eat first... then continue walking ard... then we go disturb lifang... lol... cuz she working mah... then at first me, shuan and mj went pass the back walkway to see if she is inside... then is like so funny lar... the ppl inside are dining... then the 3 of us juz walk past liddat... lol... and when lifang saw us... she also blur blur one... lol... then after we have our lunch... the 5 of us went walking pass the back walkway to see her again... LOL!! cuz chang yuan wanna talk to her... lol... chang yuan is still as crappy as ever... lol... LAMER!! then we went to the arcade... that place is horrible lar huh... nothing to play de... then we went to plaza sing after that...
at plaza sing... we are deciding whether we wanna go watch movie anot... at cathay there... then wishy washy... in the end go to paradiz center de arcade to wack daytona... i didnt play lar... cuz i kind of blur blur de... then the daytona there diff de lor... beginner got 20 laps lor!! ish like siao one... and onli 50cents okay... and ah... got turbo button somemore... is like wth... hahahahaha... but damn funny lar... see them wack the machine... poor machine... LOL!!
after daytona... we hang ard the arcade awhile... then they go play lan... they play cs... not me lar... counter-strike lar... duh... XD a game which i dont know how to play... and also dun like to play lar... so i didnt join them... i sat and watch them play... ish super funny lar... hahahaha... they play until ard 5... then mj have to go off le... and we finally decided to go watch Shoot 'em up... wahlao... that show ish okay... maybe a rating of 3.5 - 4? lol... i personally think is okay lar... got some action... and it is quite funny at times... but is very very very violent... and quite disgusting when to ppl kanna kill lar... but still okay for my acceptance... wahahaha... and there are also some sex sence and sexual references... so its M18... but gh manage to sneek thru... cuz he look to uncle alrdy lar... LOL!!! nobody wanna check his ic... hahahahaha... oh ya... and the show is very exgerating... omg... i dunno how to spell... LOL!! KUA ZHANG~ lol... do you know... carrot can actually kill ppl?? LOL!!! lame lor... hahaa... overall... the show ish not bad lar... can go watch... hahaha...
after the movie... we all go back home le... cuz i no more money to eat out lar... lol... so poor thing... and up till now... i juz change my friendster layout... and i am going to change my blogskin layout tonite... getting a little frustrated with this layout + the music... lol... it is such a bad combination!!! CHANGE FOR THE BETTER!! XD
Saturday, October 06, 2007
i just dunno wad to do...
i just dunno how to be me...
Tuesday, October 02, 2007
wahahaha... ytd went to east coast for the whole day... have such a fun filled day... lol... -.-
wake up at 9.30 in da morning... ish like the earliest i wake up for this whole holiday... LOL!! bathe and went straight out... took 13 to east coast... i thot the bus will be very empty eh... but then inside got quite alot of ppl wor... take abt 45mins to reach east coast... then went on to find hwee ing... she is the onli one that is there... we are suppose to meet at 11... but others will be late... so both of us talk talk... eat eat... then hui xian came... she brought us nugget... then we eat again... then came lai yee... lai yee and i go buy BK to eat... cuz hungry lar... tell euu wad... the BK is so super big... and they have like 7 counters... but onli 2 are open... and the whole outlet ish like quite empty ah... then we started queueing... in front of us are alrdy ordering le... but then ah... THEIR SERVICE ARE SUPER SLOW!!! wah lao... cannot tahan... like nobody is in the kitchen or they are facing some problems or wad so ever lar... ish juz super damn slow... -.- we then get our food and went back to the shelter... guan hao and ning xing also reach le... and guess wad... NOBODY ELSE is coming... LOL!!! was expecting 13 - 15 ppl de lor... LOL!! but then all other either working or working... =.= then the 6 of juz keep eating and talking...
then we go rent skate... lol... i am the onli one that know how to skate... at least i can be on myself lar... but i wont say i can skate well at all lar... still learning... haha... but the rest of them all dont know how to skate de... so they are trying to learn... which is sooooo funny lar... lol... they are so scare and it make it scare as well... lol... been sometime since i got on a skate lar... hahaha... we move to the beginner skate park... go there can learn faster... cuz got the poles and handles... which otherwise know as crash factor... lol... oh ya... we rent the skates for 3 hrs... O.O lol... then at the skate park got this 2 siblings... on skates for the first time... but nobody else is with them sia... pro lor... learn themselves... if for me ah... i wont even wanna play liao... lol... then this elder brother fell down... i didnt saw it lar... ish ning xing they all tell me de... they ask me to go over to see if he is okay cuz onli i can move over to his side... they cannot move away from the poles... haha... so i went over... there he was sitting down... with his hand on his thigh... hanging... lol... he fall on both of his hands... and hurt his wrist... like wad happen to me the other time lar... my knees got brush onto the floor as well lor... lol... it always happen de lar... cuz when fall down flat str8... sure will use hand to stop urselves de mah... then the impact will hurt the wrist... they were afraid that the wrists are fractured... but nah... its okay de lar... happen to me so many time and my wrists are still okay... lol... guess is his first time so it hurt alot for him... so i tell him to rest first... and if he nid help getting up then call anybody around lor... so he sat there very very long wor... until when he wanted to get up... he need hlp... cuz it still hurt him to press against the floor up... so i ask guan hao to help him up... onli he is in his slippers... he didnt rent... then i see this guy skate back to the rent shop and sat down... and back came his mum and grandma... his mum kind of remind me of my mum... lol... keep on scolding him... lol... i am sure she will say "good lar! who ask you want to play? now fall down alrdy lar... pain dont tell me ah... you find it yourself..." LOL!! although i didnt hear... i kind of know it... cuz thats how my mum will say... ahahahaha...
then came this china boy... onli 9 yrs old... but have train skating for 5 yrs... -.- super pro lor... and proud wor... lol... he keep playing with us... haha... and with me being the onli one that can skate... he keep pushing me around... and spinning me round and round... lol... make me luff till i wanna die... hahahaha... ish fun lar... hahahaha... he even challenge us to do some stun that he does... lol... saying that if we can complete those... he will give us one hundred thousand... lol... of cuz we cant do it lar... duh... he pro leh... lol...
after getting some drink at mac... we go play around humps... lol... and i can get over them without falling liao eh... wahahahaha... so happy... lol... after 3 hrs... my legs ish sooooo tired lor... after taking out the skates... my legs are super red... and pain... T.T then guess wad... we went cycling after that... lol... pro lor... another 2 hrs of cycling...
after all that... we went to plaza singapura to have our dinner... on our way there... went going down stairs... my legs are like jelly liddat... lol... super weak lor... like no strength liddat... hahahaha... serve myself right for not moving for 5 weeks... lol... at first i wanna go eat ajisan at plaza sing de... but everybody also poor liao lar... so we go to the food court... after eating... we then went home le... i thot i will be super tired and fell alslp immediately eh... but i still stay up till 3... LOL!! then today wake up at 2... and now i am very tired le... i nida slp earlier le... if not wont be able to switch back in time for sch...
and i wanna go sentosa once more before sch start leh... gonna see if anyone wanna go with me... wahahahahaha... ZZZZZZZZ
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