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underneath the stars
I'm waiting for you to appear.

I will always hold on to the 5 words most important in my life...
I Am What I Am


去爱吧,就像不曾受过伤一样
Go ahead and love, like you have never been hurt
跳舞吧,像没有人会欣赏一样
Go ahead and dance, like nobody will appreciate
唱歌吧,像没有人会聆听一样
Go ahead and sing, like nobody will listen
干活吧,像是不需要金钱一样
Go ahead and work, like you don't need the money
生活吧,就像今天是末日一样
Go ahead and live, like there is no tomorrow...

Wednesday, April 29, 2009
Kisses
11:55 PM

MUACKS!!


Tuesday, April 28, 2009
Missing misses
6:26 PM

Its getting boring day by day...

I need some spice, sugar and everything nice in life!


Saturday, April 25, 2009
Just shut up..
11:59 PM

I will do what I have to do, when I have to do, when I want to do and when I have the feeling to do it.


Friday, April 24, 2009
Gone soon...
9:43 PM

It won't be too long from now...


Wednesday, April 22, 2009
Rees is tired...
9:29 PM

Rees is going crazy...

He is just going to pop his pills and go to sleep.


Tuesday, April 21, 2009
100 Single Ladies - Where are all the men?
5:38 PM

Beyonce should be so proud of herself... she created a phenomenon!



Enjoy this video say... 33.33 (100/3) more times than her music video. XD


Monday, April 20, 2009
I clear away my stuffs... but not the memories
10:19 PM

As usual, I woke up at around 3.10pm today... was feeling so tired. But, I suddenly have the urge to clean my room due to constant nagging from my mum. Usually, those nagging won't get through to me and I will only do things when I feel like to.

I started working on my room from around 3.50pm. I cleared lots and lots of stuffs... keep away some things and throw away lots of them. After battling with the rubbishs for 4hrs+, I am finally done. My tables are super empty now, cupboards and neater than ever and best of all... lots of empty spaces! I have never seen my room so empty before... HAHA

Then had my dinner at 8.20pm and watch Amazing Race at 8.30pm. Read my post about it below...

btw, Congratulation to my Darling for finishing first day in school today! I am so happy for you! Work hard and play hard kies! Muacks! I love you! ^^


Amazing Race - Not So Amazing People
9:55 PM

I got so angry watching the latest episode of Season 14 Amazing Race aired on 20th April 2009. Kisha and Jen pushes my limit to tolerate their ignorant and downright rude and ugly behavior. They come into comfict with Margie and Luke at 2 points in the game when getting their clue from the clue box. Each time I saw it as Kisha and Jen fault. First off, Jen called Luke a bitch when she couldn't get her pathetic clue first. Then she pushes him away on the second clue box when Luke came from behind. Having said that, Luke is a dumb and deaf guy... How can anyone be of right mind be so rude to someone with a disability?

At the end of the race when Phil ask them about the intensity of the race, Margie and Luke confronted Kisha and Jen and they didn't care at all. They seems to think it is funny when Margie speaks and give off very rude and arrogant vibes. When Luke is signing, Kisha has the cheek to smile and laugh. That is very rude and ugly of her! I can't stand the way they react to the situation, how can somebody of this personality be on the show? Their personalities suck big time and they have ugly characters. They would ne
ver understand the world Luke and Margie are going through because they have brain smaller than the size of a pea. No... maybe even smaller than a dust particle.

Kisha and Jen are ugly! You girls made history in Amazing Race, congratulations! You girls have earn yourselves a new hate fan from Singapore! BITCHES!

(Kisha & Jen. Ugly bitches.. what kind of pose is that)

(Luke & Margie. Luke is deaf and dumb and can only communitcate with his mum through signing)


Sunday, April 19, 2009
Zac Efron told me to be responsible
3:44 PM


Had a great night/day with Darling. We catch 17 Again at Bishan Junction 8 at the 11.50am time slot and the cinema hall is actually not very packed. We are the first two to enter the hall and I took a photograph of it...

(take a look at the crimson hall...)

Anyway, the movie is fabulous... was funny, meaningful and enjoyable. The ang moh lady in front of us keep on laughing at the tiny-est bit of details. But the whole movie become more funny because of her. XD The take home message I got from the movie would be to "be responsible in every actions you take because you won't get a second chance to do it again" and "even if you made a bad choice, don't blame others or yourself but rather try and improve and do things better in the future". Well, all these things are easier said than done... but keeping them in mind all the time will remind us to be a better person.

Having said all that... I am afraid of my future...


Thursday, April 16, 2009
I'm looking for attention
11:59 PM

before the MV for the other new Kelly Clarkson's songs to come out, I will post an older song from her... Don't know if people know about this jewel from her "Breakaway" album, more famous songs include "Breakaway", "Since You Been Gone", "Behind These Hazel Eyes" and "Because Of You". Try this~

Kelly Clarkson - Walk Away


Lyrics

You've got your mother and your brother
Every other undercover
Tellin' you what to say (say)
You think I'm stupid
But the truth is
That it's cupid, baby
Lovin' you has made me this way
So before you point your finger
Get your hands off of my trigger
Oh yeah
You need to know this situation's getting old
And now the more you talk
The less I can take, oh

I'm looking for attention
Not another question
Should you stay or should you go?
Well, if you don't have the answer
Why are you still standin' here?
Hey, hey, hey, hey
Just walk away
Just walk away
Just walk away

I waited here for you
Like a kid waiting after school
So tell me how come you never showed (showed)?
I gave you everything
And never asked for anything
And look at me
I'm all alone (alone)
So, before you start defendin'
Baby, stop all your pretendin'
I know you know I know
So what's the point in being slow
Let's get the show on the road today
Hey

I'm looking for attention
Not another question
Should you stay or should you go?
Well, if you don't have the answer
Why are you still standin' here?
Hey, hey, hey, hey
Just walk away
Just walk away
Just walk away

I wanna love
I want a fire
To feel the burn
My desires
I wanna man by my side
Not a boy who runs and hides
Are you gonna fight for me?
Die for me?
Live and breathe for me?
Do you care for me?
'Cause if you don't then just leave

I'm looking for attention
Not another question
Should you stay or should you go?
Well, if you don't have the answer
Why are you still standin' here?
Hey, hey, hey, hey
Just walk away

If you don't have the answer
Walk away
Just walk (walk) away
(Just walk away)
Then just leave
Yeah yeah
Walk away
Walk away
Walk away


Tuesday, April 14, 2009
May many more merry months made...
12:00 AM

HAPPY 2 MONTHS ANNIVERSARY DARLING!!
(i love u more than anything... and may we stay in love forever more...)


Monday, April 13, 2009
Love at the new mall
5:37 PM

Well, I went with Darling to Tampines 1 today~ You know... the new mall, which people started queueing to enter before 10am on the first day they open. Where the first Uniqlo store opened in Singapore~ yes... that is the place I am talking about. =X

Reach there before 10am and we have to wait for the electronic door to open. Guess what? There are quite a lot of people waiting to go in like us. ==" No need to work ah? So free is it? LOL (cannot include us, cause we are in holidays, they are like adults)

Hmmm... we walk around for a bit, take a look at the stores... went in to Uniqlo, which was already packed with people, saw some nice clothings but did not buy any. Was interested in their COLOURFUL underwears... but they ran out of small size ==" I guess skinny people love to buy underwear huh? LOL XD

We then walk around Tampines Mall and Century Square as well... the 2 other malls only next to Tampines 1. There are not much people there~ went to the arcade at Tampines Mall and I played Para Para, and Darling join me for DDR. I really shouldn't have play them cause I am feeling so damn tired after 5 Para Para songs and 6 DDR songs ==" Even till now while I was typing, I still feel giddy from jumping so much! HAHAHA (old already =X)

After having a bit of lunch at Century Square's Food Junction, we make our way out and back to Tampines interchange where we take bus 28 back home. Reached home about 4.25pm.

It was a nice day out~ MUACK DARLING!


I want Nobody but You
1:10 AM

Got to listen to this Korean song... It is NICE! Very catchy~ I love their movement and dance. Very fluid and cute. Hahaha~ The music video itself is funny too... poor guy at the end. HAHA

Wonder Girls - Nobody



Darling... I want nobody but you...

English Lyrics are in the video itself

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Lyrics (I don't know how to read them myself... LOL)

You Know I still Love You Baby.
And it will never change.

I want nobody nobody But You, I want nobody nobody But You
Nandareun sarameun silheo nigaanimyeon silheo
I want nobody nobody nobody nobody

Nan silheunde wae nar mir eonaeryeogohani jakku naemareun deutji anhgo
Wae ireohge dareun namjaege narbonaeryeo hani eotteohge ireoni

Nar wihae geureoh dan geumar
Neonbujok hadaneun geumar
Ijen geuman haeneon nareur aljanha wae won hajido anhneun georgang yohae

I want nobody nobody But You I want nobody nobody But You
Nandareun sarameun silheo niga animyeon silheo
I want nobody nobody nobody nobody

I want nobody nobody But You I want nobody nobody But You
Nandareun sarameun silheo niga animyeon silheo
I want nobody nobody nobody nobody

Nan joheun de nan haengbok hande neoman isseu myeondwae deo baral geeopt neunde
Nugur mannaseo haengbok haran geoya nan neor tteonaseo haengbok harsueopseo

Nar wihae geureoh dan geumar
Neonbujok hadaneun geumar
Mari andoeneun mari ran georwae molla niga eopsi eotteohge haengbokhae

I want nobody nobody But You I want nobody nobody But You
Nandareun sarameun silheo niga animyeon silh eo
I want nobody nobody nobody nobody

I want nobody nobody But You I want nobody nobody But You

Nandareun sarameun silheo niga animyeon silheo
I want nobody nobody nobody nobody

I don't want nobody body body.I don't want nobody body
Naneun jeongmar niga animyeon niga animyeon silhdan maryaa~

I want nobody nobody But You I want nobody nobody But You
Nandareun sarameun silheo niga animyeon silheo
I want nobody nobody nobody nobody

I want nobody nobody But You I want nobody nobody But You
Nandareun sarameun silheo niga animyeon silheo
I want nobody nobody nobody nobody

(RAP)
Back to the days when we were so young and wild and free
Modeunge neomuna kkumman gatatdeon geuttaero doragago sipeunde
Waejakku nareur mireo naeryeohae

Why do you push me away. I don't want nobody nobody

Nobody nobody but you.

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After the nice and beautiful song... want something funny? LOL (you should only watch this after you watch the music video above) This guy do the exact same dance and movement as the girls did in the music video... and he is GOOD!! HAHAHAHA!! GENIUS!!



I am soooooo impressed by him!! Can't stop watching this!! Look closely... its all him... LOL Anybody wanna learn this dance? I am interested to.. XD


Sunday, April 12, 2009
I saw more than a haircut...
11:58 PM

Woke up at 3.30pm today... and my stomach was growling like mad. Had a packet of maggie mee and went to Ang Mo Kio to have my haircut. The same guy from my previous previous haircut did this haircut for me again. This time round when he was cutting my hair, I saw this big scar on his hand... it looks familiar...

(oh well, it may not look any different... but i do feel the cut...)

all I wanted is to know that u're there... it is that simple... just an act from you will keep me happy for the rest of the day...


Saturday, April 11, 2009
The Mind Cafe - what about mine?
11:59 PM


(Video of us playing Jenga)

Went out in the afternoon with the bunch~ which include Guan Hao, Hui Xian, Hui Hui, Christle, Raf and Lai Yee. Went into the cafe at around 2.30pm and stay throughout till 7pm. Played quite alot of board games and card games. Let's see if I can list them out...

1. Loot (Pirate cards game)
2. Taboo (I like this the most)
3. Jenga (so nervous playing this)
4. Monopoly (didnt even complete one round)
5. Dumbass (donkey trivia game - answer questions)
6. Snorta (Funny and fun)
7. Co-Motion (Charade)
8. Zombies (Brainless game)

I hope I didnt miss out any games... The session add up to $97.10 for the 7 of us. By the way, if you are planning to go to that place, make sure you bring someone who can make a lot of noise while playing those games. Cause we were deafen by the groups around us who make damn bloody hell lots of screeching and irritating noises.

We then went to the OCBC center to have our dinner at Burger King. Talk for awhile and left at around 9+ pm. I follow Hui Xian to Clarke Quay because she has to walk home (EZ-Link card was empty). I then take 54 back home. The day was fun...

(Only manage to camwhore with Hui Xian)


Friday, April 10, 2009
March is over... but the memories will stay
11:59 PM

Another Japanese song from the drama I like really much... 1 Litre of Tears



Nagareru kisetsu no mannaka de
Futo hi no nagasa wo kanji masu
Sewashiku sugiru hibi no naka ni
Watashi to anata de yume wo egaku

San gatsu no kaze ni omoi wo nosete
Sakura no tsubomi wa haru he to tsuduki masu

Afuredasu hikari no tsubu ga
Sukoshizutsu asa wo atatame masu
Ookinaa kubi wo shita ato ni
Sukoshi tereteru anata no yoko de

Arata na sekai no iriguchi ni tachi
Kiduita koto wa hitori ja naitte koto

Hitomi wo tojireba anata ga
Mabuta no ura ni iru koto de
Dore hodo tsuyoku nareta deshou
Anata ni totte watashi mo sou de aritai 

Kono saki mo tonari de sotto hohoen de

Hitomi wo tojireba anata ga
Mabuta no ura ni iru koto de
Dore hodo tsuyoku nareta deshou
Anata ni totte watashi mo sou de aritai


The boys are back~
11:59 PM

Woot~! I am so tired right now~ ==" (hopefully I will sleep earlier tonight!)

Woke up at 3pm today and get ready to go out and meet the boys from my past 1M06 class, Guan Hao, Shuan, Ming Jian and Chang Yuan. I lefft home around 4.05pm and thought I would still be in time. But I reached City Hall MRT station at 4.40pm. We're suppose to meet at 4.45pm in front of Swensen at Marina Square. So I met up with Guan Hao first at the train station and make our way over to Marina Square. Then I got to know from him that the rest will be late. So we walk around for a bit and I withdraw some money to buy something to eat because I have not ate anything for the whole day. Got myself a sandwich from 7-11 which cost me $3.30 ==" And so i ate while waiting for the rest of the guys to arrive. Until 5.30pm then Shuan appears and so we went in to Swensen. Talk for a bit and waited and Ming Jian arrives. Then Shuan and Ming Jian went to get the ticket for their movie, Fast and Furious 4, at 7pm. They ordered first before they go. Then Chang Yuan appears and ordered his food while the other foods came. The queue for the movie is so long that they only come back to eat at 6.30pm. We left Swensen at around 6.55pm and move to the cinema where I bid my farewell because I am going back to my grandma's place for dinner. Yeap, I didn't eat anything at Swensen.

After having dinner, we watch tv for a bit and talk~ Then went home at 9+ pm. Got my graduation letter already... 11th May 2009 is the ceremony. Oh well... I will be attending, right?

(to you, my one and only... I know it won't be an easy trip or a casual thing for you, because it has always been a fear and pressure. Though it hurts me so much to see you in pain and being so nervous, I can't do anything to help but to hope that everything will be alright for you... Please be fine darling... I know it is hard, but you have me to turn to when you are scare and sad okay? I am just a call away everytime... I love you.)


Thursday, April 09, 2009
I am your POP STAR!
9:04 PM

Let's shake up the J-FEVER!! XD I know this is an old song... ==" but who cares! He is fabulous

POP STAR - Hirai Ken

Popping popping! POPPI!



Romanji

I wanna be a pop star
kimi wo motto muchuu ni sasete ageru kara ne
KIRAKIRA no pop star
hane wo hiroge  mahou wo kakete ageyou  kimi dake ni

kimi ni deaeta yorokobi to  kimi ni aenai samishisa no
ryouhou wo te ni irete  koi wa hashiridasu
sora mo tobenai boku dakedo  kodoku wo utau yoru dakedo
sono hoho ni  hohoemi wo ataerareta nara
hajimete kimi wo dakishimeta shunkan ni
kamisama ga boku ni kudashita shimei wa kimi dake no HI-RO-

*1 I wanna be a pop star
kimi wo motto muchuu ni sasete ageru kara ne
KIRAKIRA no pop star
hane wo hiroge  mahou wo kakete ageyou

*2 I wanna be your pop star
kimi wo gyutto dakishimete ageru kara oide
KIRAKIRA no pop star
hane wo hiroge  mahou wo kakete ageyou  kimi dake ni

kakushite itai kurayami mo  kimi wa sotto hiroiagete
taisetsu na boku nan da to  dakishimete kureta
hikari e to tsudzuku  michi wo aruite yukou
kizu kabau  kono migite wa  kimi to te wo tsunagu tame ni

You're gonna be my pop star
boku wo motto muchuu ni sasete yo  hohoende
KIRAKIRA no pop star
sono hitomi de  boku ni mahou wo kakete

You're my only pop star
boku wo gyutto dakishimetara mou hanasanai
KIRAKIRA no pop star
sono hitomi de  boku ni mahou wo kakete  imasugu ni

koi ni ochitara  daremo ga dareka no pop star
kamisama ga  boku ni kudashita  shimei wa kimi dake no HI-RO-

*1, *2 repeat

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English Translation

I wanna be a pop star
and be more to you
I’m lifted from the ground in a daze
A sparling pop star
I spread my wings and do my magic 
just for you

When I’m with you I’m so happy
but then I’m so sad when I’m not
Taking each other’s hands
we run straight into a love affair
I can’t fly to the sky
but I can sing my song of loneliness at night
if that would bring a smile to your cheeks
When I held you close for the first time
It was as if God himself came down upon me
Now my destiny is to be a hero, just for you

*I wanna be a pop star
and be more to you
I’m lifted from the ground in a daze
A sparkling pop star
I spread my wings 
and do my magic

**I wanna be your pop star
try harder for you
so come here so I can hold you
A sparkling pop star
I spread my wings and do my magic 
just for you

I want to hide in darkness
and have you pick up me gently
If I’m imporatant to you, 
then hold me tight
I keep walking this road, towards the light
Using my right hand to protect you from pain
so that I can hold you with my other hand

You’re gonna be my pop star
and be more to me
You smile in a daze
A sparkling pop star
In your eyes, I do my magic

You’re my only pop star
try harder for me
Hold me, and don’t let go
A sparkling pop star
Right now, in your eyes, 
I do my magic

As you fall in love
anybody can be anyone’s pop star
As God himself came down upon me
My destiny was to be a hero, just for you


Days of my life
11:43 AM

(i wish i can wake up to this everyday)

No, this is not Rees blogging. XD

It has been such a long time since I wake up at this time to use the computer... and I mean it. If we're talking about going out and things, yea, I still wake up early for them. But not if I were to stay at home all day. Let's see...

Routine for my days:
-Wakes up at 2.30pm
-Help Mum look after the baby while she go fetch his sister
-Have lunch (usually bought)
-Hide myself in the room for the rest of the day till 7pm playing facebook
-Comes out to have dinner
-Go back in to my room after dinner
-Chat with Darling till 1am
-Watch videos, movies etc
-Listen to music before going to sleep at 4+ to 5am

Woot, that is basically how I spend my everyday if I did not go out. Guess it is time to change my habits... (easier said than done)

GOOD MORNING TO ALL!! (before I miss the chance to say it until the next time I wake up before 12pm)


Wednesday, April 08, 2009
I saw thunder...
11:13 PM

Conversation with Nick at 11.10pm

"
Nick:
here like want to rain, or wanted to rain...
it's cloudy and breezy...

Rees:
i saw thunder when i was at the kitchen just now
but havent rain still

Nick:
u saw thunder

Rees:
LOL
lightning

Nick:
WOW

Rees:
HAHAHAHAHA

Nick:
i heard the lightning
"

Thats a good one... ==" What am I thinking man... LOL


Read my Letter - Be strong my Darling
5:16 PM

Heard this song from Shin's blog... and I find it amazing...
I love it...

(Tegami means Letter in Japanese)



English Translation:
Dear you,
Who's reading this letter
Where are you and what are you doing now?

For me who's 15 years old
There are seeds of worries I can't tell anyone

If it's a letter addressed to my future self,
Surely I can confide truly to myself

Now, it seems that I'm about to be defeated and cry
For someone who's seemingly about to disappear
Whose words should I believe in?
This one-and-only heart has been broken so many times
In the midst of this pain, I live the present

Dear you,
Thank you
I have something to tell the 15-year-old you

If you continue asking what and where you should be going
You'll be able to see the answer

The rough seas of youth may be tough
But row your boat of dreams on
Towards the shores of tomorrow

Now, please don't be defeated and please don't shed a tear
During these times when you're seemingly about to disappear
Just believe in your own voice
For me as an adult, there are sleepless nights when I'm hurt
But I'm living the bittersweet present

There's meaning to everything in life
So build your dreams without fear
Keep on believing

Seems like I'm about to be defeated and cry
For someone who's seemingly about to disappear
Whose words should I believe in?

Please don't be defeated and please don't shed a tear
During these times when you're seemingly about to disappear
Just believe in your own voice

No matter era we're in
There's no running away from sorrow
So show your smile, and go on living the present
Go on living the present

Dear you,
Who's reading this letter
I wish you happiness

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Romaji Lyrics

Haikei kono tegami yondeiru anata wa
Doko de nani wo shiteiru no darou

Juugo no boku ni wa dare ni mo hanasenai
Nayami no kanae ga aru no desu

Mirai no jibun ni atete kaku tegami nara
Kitto sunao ni uchiake rareru darou

Ima makesou de nakisou de
Kieteshimaisou na boku wa
Dare no kotoba wo
Shinji arukeba ii no?
Hitotsu shika nai kono mune ga nando mo barabara ni warete
Kurushii naka de ima wo ikiteiru
Ima wo ikiteiru

Haikei arigatou juugo no anata ni
Tsutaetai koto ga aru no desu
Jibun to wa nani de doko e mukau beki ka
Toitsu dzukereeba mietekuru

Areta seishun no umi wa kibishii keredo
Asu no kishibe e to yume no fune yo susume

Ima makenai de nakanai de
Kieteshimaisou na toki wa
Jibun no koe wo shinjiaru keba ii no?
Otona no boku mo kizutsuite
Nemurenai yoru wa aru kedo
Nigakute amai ima ikiteiru

Jinsei no subete ni imi ga aru kara
Osorezu ni anata no yume wo sodatete
La la la, la la la
Keep on believing
La la la, la la la,
Keep on believing, keep on believing, keep on believing

Makesou de nakisou de
Kieteshimaisou boku wa
Dare no kotoba wo shinji arukeba ii no?
Aa Makenaii de nakanai de
Kieteshimaisou na toki wa
Jibun no koe wo shinjiarukeba ii no
Itsu no jidai mo kanashimi mo
Sakete wa torenai keredo
Egao wo misete ima wo ikite yukou
Ima wo ikite yukou

Haikei kono tegami yondeiru anata ga
Shiawase na koto wo negaimasu


Thursday, April 02, 2009
5:37 PM

To dream that you cannot find what you are shopping for, suggests that you are trying to find a solution to some life problem.


Wednesday, April 01, 2009
6:05 PM

Somehow, one way or another... my emo self caught up again.

He somehow scream for attention from me...

Eventually, I let him overtake my body once more.

I am sorry Darling, not am I not strong, but I am acting in a way, not making things any easier for you...

(and so, I live in the dark in my room. Hearing parents talking and kids laughing just the opposite side of the door make me feel even lonelier. I just want to be drunk... and things would all look better)


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