I will always hold on to the 5 words most important in my life...
I Am What I Am
去爱吧，就像不曾受过伤一样
Go ahead and love, like you have never been hurt
跳舞吧，像没有人会欣赏一样
Go ahead and dance, like nobody will appreciate
唱歌吧，像没有人会聆听一样
Go ahead and sing, like nobody will listen
干活吧，像是不需要金钱一样
Go ahead and work, like you don't need the money
生活吧，就像今天是末日一样
Go ahead and live, like there is no tomorrow...
here ish the pic... we look gay mah? LOL!! hahahaha... no la.. he ish my beri gd de fren... nt gay partner... lol... sl.. luv u... LOL!! jk jk... hahahahahaha... =X
sometimes... i juz wonder... is wadever i am doing rite or not? am i going to regret it after wad i have done... becuz there ish juz so much decision to make... and... not everytime... i will go wit wad i want... but wad ppl want... i use to think... i juz wanna do wad i want... and dont care wad other ppl think... and wad other ppl say or will say to me... but... seems like it is not easy at all... i cannot choose to do things the way i wanted... becuz i am not capable enough... i am not confident enough... i am not decisive enough... whenever theres a decision to make... i wont juz decide on wad to do... instead... i am so very use to ask ard... although i have my own set of thinkings... but... it seems like other ppl words move me more... after hearing frm ppl... i am doubting myself already... am i doing it the rite way? will this lead me to somewhere? until now... i am still very lost... i am realli lost...
went out
12:24 AMhmm hmm... today very happy... haha... went out to play again... lol... woke up at 12+... now i wont slp till 2 like last time le leh... dunno why le... everytime ard 12+ will wake up le... if not earlier le... haiz... dunno why... then at nite at most ish 2+ le.. then knock off liao... last time until 4 also nvm... zzz... haiz... k... dun say tat le... hmm... today went to mit alice and sl at 3... at doby... we go play arcade first... lol... i go para again lo... hahahaha... so fun so fun... so nice to play... lol... then we play play ard... then we go plaza sing de comics connection to buy things... alice de bro ask her to buy a game... then she go buy another 4 maple cash card... altogether she spen $101... lol... so rich hor... so xian mu... then we go mit zhimin and anne at 5... but we late... lol... then we go marina bay eat steamboat... haha... so funny there la... at first we cook... then ah... the oil ah... like dunno wad liddat la... so damn much lo... zzz... keep spilling everywhere de lo... we sit de table ish small de... not like last time gathering de big table... so ah... the distance to the steamboat ah... ish very near... then while cooking ah... keep kanna spill by oil la... damn pain... but zhimin more chan... she got blister... lol... one cao da thing fly to her hand... then very hot... then got blister... lol... poor thing... then we eat frm like 5+ 6 to 7+ 8 lo... lol... but now i a bit hungry eh... LOL! then we go play arcade... there de para machine de sensor not so gd leh... lol... not nice to play de... but the volume ish fantastic... lol... very loud... i like... hahahaha... then play a while... we go back to doby to play... cuz there de arcade nicer... then the para machine better... hahaha... so we play play play... see see see... until almost 11 then we leave... then i reach home at 11+ ard 12 bah... then after bathe then come use comp le... haha... juz now on train take pic wit sl lo... he very afraid.. lol... say will look like gay partner... lol... sl... dun worry... i wont be interested in u de... LOL! no offence hor... lol... dun anyhow think... LOL!!
Tuesday, September 26, 2006
neck pain
9:59 PMaiyo... feel terrible... ahh... my neck so pain now... haiz... like going to break liao le... ahhh... so pain... this may have 2 reasons to it... one... when i slp, nv slp properly... called as lao zheng... another reason may be cuz i keep staring at the lap top screen today... i nv realli move abit bah... lol... thats why the neck turn stiff le... lol... pain pain... how nice if there is someone to massage for me... zzz... the neck pain ish causing me to have headache also le... haiz... maybe tonite slp earlier? lol... see how bah...
Sunday, September 24, 2006
johnathon dar dar
10:54 PMhmm hmm... so tired so tired... zzz... hahaha... so slpy lo... aiyo... ytd nite cannot slp properly... zzz... haiz... now die liao la... cuz ah... too long slp alone in the rm le ah.. then use to the quiet surrounding ah... a bit of noise onli will wake me up le... zzz... ytd nite bro was slping in the rm also... zzz... i slept first... then ah... when i slp was so shu fu lo... i cover blankie... then on the air con... ah... so shuang... then was slping so soundly de... then he came back home... zzz... he walk into the rm onli... i wake up liao... so i nv think abt anything and i slp back again... then after awhile i wake up again... cuz he off the air-con... so pek chek la... zzz... haiz... nvm... cont to slp... then was becoming hot le... so i on the fan... then was like dunno wad time onli lo... forget the time also le... then i cannot slp back le... cuz he snoring sia... aiyo... cannot slp la... then everytime i fall asleep... i wake up soon le... zzz... cuz i keep feeling got ppl below... which ish him la... last whole wk ish i alone in rm so no sound no ppl... then i can slp properly... he ytd come back onli i cannot slp le sia... haiz... poor me... dunno the rest of the wk he come back how... sign~
then today morning i wake up at 10 la... haiz... nv wake up so early de lo... zzz... then watch a while children de show then go downstair eat breakfast... been a long time since i last wake up so early on sunday... lol... then eat alrdy aunt wan to celebrate bro bday for him.. he dunno what happen la... after coming back frm ming rui bday party onli he hate bday celebration... think got smth happen bah... then aunt and me and my cousin walk to j8 to buy a cake and walk back home... then we celebrated for him... he abit like wanna cry leh... haiz... dunno wad happen... he also dun wanna tell... zzz... then after that i go bathe and watch a while tv then went out wit johnathon le... was at first going to marina city park de... but in the end went to watch movie at doby dere de cathy... i so blur la... cuz i dunno got another cathy here... lol... keep kanna scolded sotong... lol... then we watch John Tucker Must Die... very funny la the show... hahaha... so so so funny... then we went to doby de arcade play... i again para lo... lol... then he para also... haha... he dance so cute de... haha... but he still a bit new bah... lol... then we play that meow meow de shooting game... he lost to me so many times... lol.. then we stay frm 5+ till 7+... then we go to bugis to eat... cuz his house ish there... then after eating go home le... then i reach home at abt 9.30 liddat... then bathe and come use comp le... yumei juz talk to me saying wanna play mahjong... lol... all shou yang liao... hahahaha... k bah... nxt time can play bah... i now maybe going to slp le... wah... tired sia... zzz...
Saturday, September 23, 2006
bbq today
1:15 AMwahahaha... juz bathe finish... so shuang... feel sooooo damn good now... wah... got alot of things to do liddat leh... lol... nid count money... nid cut finger nails... nid slp... ahahaha... juz now tat bbq so long lo... lol... all the way frm 6+ to 11+ la... lol... aiyo... now cannot blog liao... too damn tired le... i think i leave it till tmr then blog bah... cannot tahan le... haiz... juz now de handphone got stupid problem lo... i didnt know at first de... then juz now was msging johnathon kor... then msg til he nv reply le... so i thot he busy or wad mah... nv think too much abt it... then ah... later a bit i try to call chern hui to tell her smth abt the bus she can take home de... then ah... i cannot call her la... dunno why... also nv think too much... so i lend hp frm kai xin and got thru.. so nv care much le... then juz now when i wan msg yumei tell her havent get money frm her... then ah... dunno why cannot send the msg... was feeling weird la... thats before i go bathe... so after i bathe i try again... still cannot sia... so i think have problem liao... i off the phone then on again... then i msg... then can send liao... so was happy la... then ah.. the phone keep ringing for msg le la... kor send me 4 messages lo... haiz... so guilty... cuz hp de stupid problem nv msg him back... ahhhh... kor... pai seh eh... if u reading this ah... say a very big sorry to u k? not on purpose de... ish the phone sot de... sorry sorry... >.< dun angry ah... =P guess u slping le bah... nitex...
i think i tmr then blog abt wad happen today bah... i now cannot tahan liao... zzz... go orh orh le...
bbq was fun ppl.. thx for everyone that make it a success... ^^ love you ppl always!!! ^^
Thursday, September 21, 2006
bugis shopping
6:24 PMwahahaha... cough cough... lol... tired sia... today walk too much le... haha... was supppose to go bugis with yumei and sl to buy yumei's bf de birthday present de... then sl too sian liao... dun wan to go le... left me and yumei... then went there at 2+ and started walking at bugis street... was walking and looking and walking and looking... hahahaha... so many things to see lo... then walk frm bugis street to bugis junction and back to bugis street again and again... lol... we cross the traffic light 4 times le bah... lol... then ym wanted to look for a jacket for her bf... then cannot find nice nice de... instead... i find a lot of lots clothes lo... lol... in the end i bought 2 shirts... hahaha... then still got one ish at bugis junction de edge... there got one shirt ish like vest liddat de... i called it sleeveless jacket... hahaha... it ish sooooo nice lo... i wanna buy de.. but then no money liao sia... hahaha... nvm... nxt time ask money frm mummy or ask her there then go buy... i muz get it... sooooo nice sia... zzz... hahaha... then still got see some necklace... wah lao... nice la.. lol... everything also seems nice... but then this necklace like $20+ so ex lo... haiz... but see la... hahaha... nxt time maybe can buy... then got this accessory for the pants de... also very nice.. hahaha... $10.90... lol... cannot everything also buy la... thats why nv buy... then ym bought her bf a jacket kind of shirt... lol... ish like jacket la... but then not so thick de... then we go back to toa payoh... i bought a pair of earrings... haha... $2 nia... big big de... lol... i like... hahaha... then go home... then when i come use laptop that time ah... baby cry le... so like got scare by the sound of grinding the xia mi... mini prawn... mummy cooking tat... then she cry so loudly lo... like so scared liddat... poor thing... then i go hlp mummy take care of her... then she wan find mummy.. so i hlp mum finish her things... then i look after her for a while more... mummy give her eat... then i go shao xiang.. then go hlp mummy mop the kitchen floor... lol... i so guai right... wahahaha... LOL!!
haiz... tmr de bbq ah.. think ah... anne and daryl wont come liao la... that anne ah... talk to her in msn ah.. dun care me nvm... go offline... dun wan go say dun wan go la... or wadever ur reason may be la... dun care liao... i think daryl wont go also liao la... zzz...
Wednesday, September 20, 2006
arcade
7:42 PMlol... today was suppose to stay home de... cuz everyday also go out le mah... then in the end ah... siang long ask me out... lol... go meet him at 2.30 at doby to play arcade again... hahaha... fun sia... lol.. but then ah... i abit sick sick liddat... then no strength liddat de... play para ah... also cannot dance properly... get de score like shit liddat... then play ddr ah... keep dying liao... hahaha... cannot tahan... then at 5+ we leave liao... then i went back home to eat dinner... then was doing everything properly for my mum... lol... wanna make her happy then tmr will give me money go bugis buy clothes... wahahaha... evil sia... lol...
ytd ah... at nite... eileen come find me talk... then found out we can check time table liao... so fast hor... then also that she will be in the same IS course with me again... lol... now have serene, eileen and me in same IS class liao... not so lonely liao... hahahaha... then ah... our time table sucks la... monday ah... frm 8 - 5... but then ah... 8 - 10 got lecture... then at 10 break until 2.. zzz... then frm 2 - 5 got lecture and a tut... wad the fuck la.. stupid lo... 4hrs break... dunno do wad sia... if go home ah... wont feel like going back sch lo... then if stay in sch ah... do wad sia... zzz... maybe can go find arcade play... LOL!! now got 3 days start at 8 de lo... super sian ah... another 2 days ish one at 10, one at 1... zzz... 3 days at 8 de eh... sian la... muz squeeze the buses with ppl la... then rd always jam... zzz... HAIYO!! =.=
Tuesday, September 19, 2006
bbq gathering
8:01 PMhmmm... today wake up at 12... then eat chicken rice for lunch... then i wait till 2 then leave home to find yumei... was meeting her to go look for the prices of the things that we are going to nid for the bbq... we are organising a mini gathering at the bbq pit juz below my house... then go toa payoh find the stuff... then we go walk walk... then i find this fake diamond earring... onli $3... big big de... lol... maybe will go back buy... haha... then we go find the prices of the stuff... very fast nia... then we get everything de price le... then quickly call everyone... ask them... and happily... everybody can... lol... then we go to arcade.. and i para as usual... the para machine ish para para paradise... no mix de... wah... more difficult than 2nd mix lo... x.x i will fail de... play first time fail at 2nd song... cant stop falling in love... so pai seh... haiz... then 2nd time play till 4th song... fail at luv to me... but that one ish different version de... nv play before de... not same as 2nd mix de... then 3rd time fail at last song... the japanese words de... eurobeat mix de... lol... not bad la... getting better each time ma... hahaha... then very stupid... i forget my tapz card in my pocket of another pants... then i go buy new one... cuz if go there then cannot play very sian la... x.x hahaha... then after that we go back le... then reach home at 5 liddat... then i go book the pit... lucky have ah... cuz saturday nite de got ppl book liao... then i went home... then ah... when i go into room ah.. my mum ask me hlp look after kai xuan... then ah.. i juz leave her for a while... then she fall on the left side of her face... then ah... my mum like keep saying me la... but not my fault sia... she liddat fall how can i bi mian? then like angry liddat... wah lao... i also angry let her see la... x.x so pek chek juz now... then i go eat chocolate... =p then when she go bathe also ask me look after... zzz... after she bathe and come out... then okie liao... will talk to me... zzz... so i ate dinner... and come use comp liao... zzz... i think i going toilet liao... stomach pain sia... ZZZ...
Monday, September 18, 2006
fun fun fun
11:15 PMhahaha... today another day out... lol... fun day sia.. haha... everyday go out sia... lol... i think tmr going out again... hahaha... k.. today first...
in morning... wake up at 10... then lie on bed till 10.30... cuz wanna go mit alice at 11.30 to go sch together... got a bday present for ms leong... and alice also wanna see other teachers... then i wake up liao then go buy lunch for mummy... then i wait till alice call me then go out... when reach sch ah... pathetic la... i cannot go into the sch area... i onli can be at the general office... cuz i wearing slippers... sian la... wtf lo... slippers cannot go in... zzz... then nvm... we go in... then alice go into general office tell them her purpose... so ma fan lo... then wait for ms leong... then was waiting... but then was thinking of going back home to change to shoes... so i can go in... then tell alice to go tell the person we come back later... but then when she go in... i saw ms leong walking to the staff rm... so i tell alice to go chase after her... and she came... we talk talk a while then ask abt ms tew... but then... she sick... haiz... poor thing... so nv come sch... then we talk talk awhile... mrs quah come to talk to alice also... she very funny de... lol... at first even dun recognise alice... haha... then talk talk talk... the coversation ish funny also la.. haha... then after that... we go to junction 8 de food court to eat... and i at poh kim ah... found all the NANOHA series eh!!! hahaha... but then... ex la... cannot buy sia... i now damn poor la... poor thing... haiz... then we go eat yong tao fu... nice nice... then we sit down there ah... talk talk talk talk so long... lol... so many things to say sia... haha... then i call back home telling mum i eating with her outside today... cuz... we are meeting our maplestory guild members... lol... funny la... hahaha... k... thats later part... then we go to doby to play arcade... then we play para... play daytona... play house of the dead 4... lol... daytona ah... i lose to her 2 times la... sad de... x.x then play house of the dead we keep dying... x.x then play para para... and then ah... ALICE KNOW HOW TO PLAY LO!! lol... she pro la... haha... first time play can get so high score... pro... lol... nxt time go out got ppl pei me play para para liao... lol... then after that abt 4+ we go to her house... cuz she hlp the guild ldr bought nogurt... then we leave house at 6... we are suppose to meet them at the lao pa sar at 6.30 de... lol... then the rd jam la... lol... reach there alrdy 6.50 liddat le... lol... then meet them for first time mah... lol... got 2 guy uncle liao lo... hahaha... like 30+ yr old liao lo... hahahaha... still mapling eh... hahaha... so funny... lol... then one gal 21... 2 other guys 21 and 20... me and alice the youngest... then they buy foods... satay... sotong... kakong... you tiao... rojak... then me and alice nv pay lo... lol... a bit pai seh la... they say they treat... ask us to eat can liao... then the other 2 guys also nv pay... cuz they also in poly de... but 3rd yr liao... then that 21 yr old gal ish working liao... her position in guild ah... lol... ish call GuanyinAnt la.. LOL! so funny la... hahahaha... she ish the ldr of the guild... lol... then after eating... they all talk talk talk... all abt maple nia... lol... then at 9 then we leave... alice and i go take train... then i reach home abt 10... then bathe... and watch america's nxt top model... i thot Gina will be out liao eh... but then in the end become Kari... so sad... she 18 onli lo... got potential... lol.. then after watching come blog liao... ^^ kk... go see audition de new items le... hahaha... then go slp le... so tired...
Sunday, September 17, 2006
went out wit alice
10:27 PMaiya... tired tired... realli uncle liao la... old uncle... lol... or gay uncle... LOL! haiyo... all thanks to alice lie... i become gay uncle... x.x LOL! today very happy la... went out wit alice, cailin and zhimin... lice (pronounced as lis) come back frm aust lo... then we go out again... so happy... haha... in morning i wake up at 12... then still so tired... so i sms lice whether today outing still on anot... cuz i still blur blur... then she nv reply first... so i sms cailin... then my hp rang ish lice... she say still on but change to mit at 2.30 cuz cailin juz woke up... haha... then cailin also sms back... i so happy lo... hahaha... can lazy a while more... lol... then wake up come use comp for while... talk to johnathon kor kor... talk talk talk... then i go eat lunch... mummy cook porridge again... x.x then eat this spicy fish... still not bad la... but then the vege thingy so not nice... so dun eat... lol... so got tao gua... lol... beancurd la... lol... then after eating ish ard 1.30 le... so i was thinking go back talk to him a while then go bathe and go out le... but then juz keep talking to him ah... then forget time la... i until 1.45 then go bathe... come out alrdy like 2... lol... then rush out of home and take bus to toa payoh... then lucky reach there onli late 5 mins... hahaha... lice even later than me lo... haha... then we wander off to marina square... we go walk walk first... then go buy venezia ice-cream... then eat alrdy... zhimin go buy chicken cutlet... the shi lin one... big big one... crispy crispy one... lol... i like hlp them da guang gao... lol... then after that... we go play pool... play one hr nia... then go play daytona.. hahaha... play 2 times beginner course also i first... wahahaha... then play advance i 3rd sia... x.x lol.. then i go play para again... hahaha... a bit weird feeling... lol... nv play in a while le mah... then go play house of the dead 4 wit alice... lol... she die in the first rd... havent even reach boss... lol... then i die in second rd... havent reach boss also... x.x hahahaha... then we go starbuck drink coffee and chocolate... lice treat de... hahaha... still got one oreo cheese cake... then this chocolate biscuit... then after that we go eat dinner liao... at like 5+ onli... haha... like 5.30 liddat... we go cafe cartel eat... i ate the crispy chicken again... then alice eat pork rib... cailin eat her grilled chicken again... lol... then i cannot really finish everything lo... so damn full la... lol... but very shuang... hahaha... then we sit in there talk talk... but lucky nobody la... then after that we go shopping for ms leong present... in the end have buy la... but then zhimin and lice also bought a wallet for themselves... lol... we even take neocards for ms leong... lol... then ish abt 9+ le.. cailin tmr have sch... and zhimin nid to go home... so we went home le... then now after i blog... i think i will go play maple wit alice liao... haha... PQ PQ... lol... blog another time bah...
Happy to have frens ard me... LOVE U GUYS!!!
Saturday, September 16, 2006
superstar
10:50 PMlalala... now abit high la... cannot blame... lol... juz now still depressed like dunno wad sia... lol... juz now at 3+ liddat i went to toa payoh hdb hub wit mummy and papa to watch the project superstars de 2nd rd for guys... go there watch and watch... abit sian la... cuz like all not sing really well de... onli a few la... then also frm far... cannot see clearly their face... haiz... then at ard 5.30 then we leave... watch so long lo... then we go walk frm tp central to lor4 to eat guek chap... that pig organs and stuff de thingy... queue ish like so damn long la... frm 6+ queue to 7 lo... but not i queue la.. lol... papa queue... hahahaha... then was like so nice lo... then onli $9 for the 3 of us... and we ate till very full lo... so shuang... then packet some dessert and walk home... was quite a long walk... but keep talking on the way... actually quite nice... then went home and sat in front of tv and watch da chang jin... lol... chang jin small that time very cute... lol... then watch watch watch... and eat dessert... then bathe liao come use comp le... then hlp papa print lyrics... and talk to kor kor johnathon... lol... so nice... nice talking to him... then juz found out my IS class same with serene... LOL! so cool la... hahaha... so happy also... not alone liao... wahahahaha... k k... i too high liao... lol... nid cool down le... lol...
Thursday, September 14, 2006
cont
4:19 PMyawn... tired tired... now ah... everywhere also aching... lol... so tired... x.x k... now muz continue where i stop yesterday...
i suddenly remb yesterday nv mention smth... lol... damn funny... when they go rent skates and bike that time... after renting... shuan try on the skates... then ah... the skates got a metal thingy that prevent the ankle frm twisting... then ah... the metal thingy nv place properly and ish like stuck at his ankle there instead... i last time also liddat la... but the funny thing ish he say... wah lao... chee bye... pain... this is wad he mean... lol... but he nv pause in between chee bye and pain... which sounded like chee bye pain to us... so damn funny la... was telling him... he got meh... lol...
k... come back... lol... so after talking till 6+ we went to mac to eat... damn pek chek... onli open at 7... cuz of wad power shortage kind of things... sian la... muz wait outside... then everyone so tired... x.x then saw bo chou there... he also at the chalet... then we go in eat liao go back chalet... we all exchange shift liao... those ppl that are slping at nite de wake up liao... then become us 6 slping... hard to slp ah... no space... then also cannot fall alslp... but still manage to slp a while bah... maybe like half an hr bah... lol.. then at 12... we all wake up le... and started to talk again... and sian la... dawn's boyfren come... pek chek lo... she say he wont come de lo... but then in the end come... he damn noisy de lo... i dun like him la... believe everyone else also la... so ish like see him then become damn sian liao lo... qi gek... then he also keep talking so loudly to us... dun wan to listen to him la... diam lo... then was planning to go www... lol... wild wild wet... i at first keep saying dun wan to go de... but in the end i know that idiot will not be going also and stay at the chalet... i choose to go... lol... bad la... but i really dun like him ard la... then in the end at 3 then we go... 6 ppl went... onli mi one guy... x.x then we go in play play... was really fun la... haha... happy i went... go in everywhere also not much ppl... shuang lo... hahaha... everyone ish like so high lo.. haha... but the slides there ish limited... not much things to play... but nvm... cuz we 6 onli pay $4 each to go in... cuz got complimentary tickets... then after playing... was like so cold lo... then now got cold liao lo... so chan... x.x sniff sniff... lol... then play until 5+ almost 6 we go back le... then i take clothes go public toilet bathe... then go back and started bbqing le... was like so tired and my nose ish like spoilt liao... cannot tahan... then keep eating and eating... and they open their vodka... and some cocktail... i onli drink the cocktail... ish nice... onli 3.5% alcohol... but also nice... hahaha... vodka ish 40%... so i dun wan drink... better dun... then the bbq nv stop de la... eat all the way to 9 la... cuz got damn lots of things to eat la... then ms teh and mr mak also come... they very xing fu de... we all take foods to them nia... lol... then mr mak bring this whole big tray of fruits la... damn big oh... go apple.. orange... grapes... 2 kinds of honeydew... papaya... watermelon... so many la... then i eat like dunno wad lo.. lol... eat till 9... me and claudia and hui hui leave together... cuz i not staying for the nite... i really cannot tahan liao... pai seh ah ppl... lol... then went home wit claudia on bus... then i reach bishan and walk home... the way back home so shu fu... cuz i walking alone on the road... then dark dark de... then breezy breezy de... then i walk slowly... and the road onli a few cars... so shu fu... then reach home... take things to wash... and then go bathe... and use comp... so comfortable le... then after blogging go slp le...
now still very tired... lol... nid a few days to recover liao.. lol... maybe now going to play audition... then juz now download jay chou de new songs... nice oh... muz go try... i going to change my blog to one of his song... now go find ba... and hor... result tmr out le... scare scare... but shld be okie de bah... hahha... gd luck to everyone else... and to myself also... lol...
Wednesday, September 13, 2006
chalet
11:57 PMwahahaha... juz come back from the chalet eh... this post will be beri very veri bery long lo... lol... a bit high la... hahaha... but then... so tired... zzz... contridicting liddat... lol... but anyway... juz say wad i did at the chalet...
first day... which ish 12th sep... which ish tuesday... morning ah... i slp at 4am... la... cannot slp cuz my leg dunno why muscle cramp... then also think ish a bit excited la... lol... so cannot get to slp... then morning wake up at 11... so tired... feel like slping more lo... but then... muz go meet guan hao at 12.15 mah... so quickly wake up and then go buy breakfast... eat liao then go check things one last time... then guan hao tell me he will be late 10mins... so when i plan to leave home at 12... i delay to 12.10 lo... but in the end he reach at 12.17... and i still down there walking to the mrt station... lol... so lazy la... then was so hot but i still wear a long sleeve shirt... lol... stupid lo... hahaha... then meet him liao we take to pasir ris to meet ming jian... hui xian... shaun... serene and li fang... the trip ish so long... lol... but still okie la... got listen to music... got talk talk with guan hao... then reach liao we go to the chalet le... then at the chalet i do my things again lo... go wash cup... fill hot water and wash the cup... thenwe started playing card games and shaun brought his ps2 to plug in and play... was playing and waiting for elieen to come and we go meet her and go ntuc buy some more things... then elieen forget to bring the hotdog they all bought the last time... zzz... so we go buy bbq stuff and then they also bought a bottle of vodka... $59 la... zzz... so ex lo... i nv drink... cuz was thinking go outside i better dont drink all this... not too good... then after buying... we went back to chalet and then go eat... then after eating go rent overnite cycle... wah piang... damn ex la... $18 lo... sot dot... see the price alrdy sian liao... so dun wan rent... rather stay in the rm and nua... lol... while they renting ah... the place there ish full of damn bloody fucking mosqiuto la... fuck them la... lol... kanna bitten sooooo many lo... so damn itchy la... pek chek... but not me alone la... everybody else also got bitten... lol... all also very ke lian... they ought to clean up the place a little bit... or very big bit... lol... then they ride their bike and go beach... onli me, chang yuan and elieen nv rent... so we walk slowly... then we go see the swampy place there got crabs anot... lol... then there have a lot of shells stick onto the branch like thing de... then we keep plucking them out... lol... dunno they will die anot... i think they are like sea snail or smth like tat... then while we walking ah... they keep miss calling li fang phone... lol... cuz her phone wit us... then they keep playing... lol... funny la... bo liao... lol... then we walk back that time see a lot of sand files... scary... then back to chalet... we in chalet play ps2... then talk talk... after a while... shaun... chang yuan and me went to the arcade... then they play a mini version of time crisis 4... lol... the screen smaller de... hahaha... then i as usual go play my para para... but fuck!! that bloody machine ish so lousy la... the sensor like got problem de lo... i keep missing like hell la... and it is 1st mix... lousy de la... pek chek... keep failing... dui lian... then dun play liao... then ming jian and guan hao come join us... then they go play daytona... and guan hao the onli one that use automatic win the rest which use manual... lol... funny sia... then we go mac eat ice cream... by this time ish ard 9+ almost 10 liao... then hui xian, li fang and elieen all go back chalet watch kim sam soon... lol... then the rest go play pool... but again.. lol... i nv play... haha... so lazy lo... then awhile later ming jian also went back to watch sam soon... at 10.30 the pool close liao... so we leave le... then go back chalet... and the show ended... then some time later dawn and bee sim come le... after a while shaun, li fang, hui xian,vanessa and ming jian went for their night cycle le... then the rest of us keep talking lo... talk abt relationship la... talk abt alot of things bah... so nice... love these small talks... can understand each other better... then talk talk talk... at 2+ am they come back le... vanessa fren also come liao... name james... said to be vanessa yet to be boyfriend... lol... gd looking lo... lol... then we cannot have our small private talk liao... so we chit chit chat chat the whole nite... then slowly... one by one fall alslp liao... lol... dawn... james... bee sim... shuan... ming jian... vanessa... onli left me, hui xian, li fang, elieen and guan hao still awake... then we funny la... talk abt damn lots of things la... frm like 3+ start talking... we talk until morning 6+ la... we start the topic wit dogs... then to dreams... then to ghost.. then to women... then to masturbate... lol... the topic keep going and going la... wont have like slient de lo... lol... but by morning ah... i cannot tahan ah... so tired...
i think day 2 de stuff i tmr wake up then write... cuz i can keep on going and going and going la... lol.. cuz got a lot of things to say mah... hahaha... really have lots of fun this time... thanks everyone for making this chalet and success oh!! hahaha... love u guys!! love 1M06!! cont tmr...
Monday, September 11, 2006
sian
3:25 PMhmmm... been some time since i last blog again... =p cuz this few days nv come online mah... then juz play my offline games and watch tv and all lo... cuz come online also nth much to do... play audition also will lagg then cannot get my perfect... so sian... so i juz play offline game... then nv bother to come online... also dunno wad to blog le... tmr will be going to chalet liao... hope will be fun bah... ^^
Wednesday, September 06, 2006
pek chek
2:44 PMwah lao... sian one lo... i now back to using my laptop again... pek chek sia... juz use my desktop for 3 nites nia... then my desktop now got problem again... kao... use on sunday nite... monday nite... then yesterday nite... and tadaa... VIRUS ATTACK!! wah lao... yesterday dunno wad happen la... juz use normally... then start to have error all over... after restarting a few times... it prompt me to install my internet thingy... so i cancel away... then all the program become window icon... so i dunno wad happen... go restart comp again... then bloody hell... ask me to install window 98 again... so i follow to step and install and also key in the cd-key... then tadaa... the whole thing juz stay at the wallpaper liao... nothing come up le... cb de eh... sian la... then restart again... the whole paper become distorted liao la... sure ish kanna virus liao le... but then ah... i dunno wad i did eh... i nv accept any files... i nv download any unknown things... i dunno wad happen this time la... innocent lo... SIAN AH!!!
Tuesday, September 05, 2006
my bday...
11:44 PMtoday... happy oh... haha... at least my bday ish not another normal day... thanks to u all... joseph... siang long... and yumei... cuz of u all... my bday ish special... thx... thx so much... i may not say it out loud in front of u all... but really... i appreciate it... thx...
today morning... went to toa payoh de food court there to eat wit mummy... then went to marina sq de kbox... cuz there de kbox nicer... bigger... more beautiful... so went there to sing and play and have fun... the best part ish they bought a cake for me... so... gan dong... really very happy... then ah... the cake have 3 chocolate balls on it... then tat siang long go push them down... and ask me to take them up with my mouth onli... aiyo... lol... so i did juz tat la... then lucky i clever... lol... yumei wanna push my head down first de... but then i siam... lol... so nv kanna... 2nd time also unsuccessful... lol.. then to siang long turn... he push hard la... lol... but then i still manage to escape off... hahaha... at the end of the day i take the balls out alrdy... but my face onli have those chocolate powder... not those cream... lol... then ah... i eat half of the cake eh... lol... cuz i use my mouth to take the part... nobody wanna eat liao... lol... the cake ish nice... yummy... haha... then after that keep singing again... until 5.45 liddat the person come chase us away le... then go arcade play my para para again... haha... now wont fail liao le... hahaha... pro liao eh... lol... but still got the song... velfare 2000... still cannot la... that one crazy de lo... cannot pass de... zzz... haha... then after that we go doby gaut de pepper plus... i treat siang long and joseph eat... then buy ice-cream for yumei onli... cuz she say not hungry... then eat and talk abt many jokes... lol... so funny la... and ah... while we walking to mrt station frm marina sq... joseph bang into the pillar la... lol... so funny lo... he very blur today la... lol... funny sia... then after eating at pepper plus ah... he stand up that time the whole chair fall behind la... we are like luffing and luffing again lo... LOL!! so funny... then go to doby gaut de arcade play para again... lol... dance dance dance... then at 9+ go home... juz now reach home ard 10... then watch Jin San Soon de DVD wit mummy awhile... then juz bathe and come use comp le... haha... today will be slping earlier ba... tired lo... hahaha...
hey... for those who wishes me happy birthday... thx again ah... if i nv thanks u all... pai seh oh... and ya... thx to yumei... siang long and joseph again... i am really happy today... and i enjoy it a lot... looking forward to other outing wit u all... ^^
alone
2:20 AMi guess my birthday will be another normal day i have... nothing special at all... i will wake up late in the afternoon... having lunch wit my mum... then come back play computer games... at nite have dinner... then play games again... then slp at 2+ 3 again... but i dun wan it to be like this... i look forward to this special day... cuz this birthday is the first birthday i have in poly... but... my poly frens cancel away the outing with me... i dun blame them... moreover... i have not been attending their birthday party as much... feeling a bit down... i ask sec sch frens whether wanna go out... at first still okie... but in the end ppl stone... dun reply... i know they are busy... but it give me a feeling of dun really wanna care... cant hlp but feel really lonely... i am pessimistic... i know... i get really sad at the smallest thing u can imagine... but i cant hlp it... i cannot see things the good way... thinking everything will be fine... i worry and worry... i read ppl blogs... seeing them talking abt their dears and darlings... scolding them in the cute way... talking abt how they really care for each other... being lovey dovey... i cannot hlp but feel really lonely... i am jealous of them... i know this is really stupid... foolish thinking... but... being alone... when u wan someone to be ard u... when u feel really down... when u think nobody understand u... it ish really sad... the feeling onli i understand... the helplessness... the loneliness... i cannot hlp it... but feel that way... whoever tat read this may think this entry come frm a gal... but no... i am not sissy either... i juz have the insecurity... i am not complaining... and i am not trying to show that i am weak... i juz feel the nid to release my feeling...
today outing ish still on... we will still be going to kbox frm 2-7... at marina sq... onli have yumei... joseph... siang long... i thank u all for wanting to go out wit me... but i am feeling really terrible now... sry if i bring down the mood later... sry if am sucky... sry if i did anything wrong... sry for everything... sry... sry...
happy birthday rees...
2:19 AMHappy Birthday Rees!! today ur birthday le... haha... must be happier oh... 17 years old liao... muz be mature le... dun always get depress at the small things... you muz know that u urselves isnt someone so great... u forget abt other ppl bday too... so its okie for ppl to forget abt urs... dun feel sad... dun feel lonely... cuz this is ur live... u are someone not so easy to be with... someone that can be really selfish... u always thot that other ppl arent really thinking of u... arent the way u expect them to be... but u urselves are the same... we are all the same... keep demanding ppl for more... but nv once improve on urselves... Rees... pls... reflect... remember... u arent that great afterall...
Sunday, September 03, 2006
new monitor
11:17 PMwahahaha... now using my new monitor le!! hahaha... so big so wide... lol... but then ah... haiz... still use back window98 sia... sian... then alot of things in laptop de not here le... aiyo... my story all written there de... nxt time wan to write nid to use laptop publish... haiz... ma fan ma fan... but also gd la... use back cpu de... will be faster than laptop... haha... happy happy... now use back this keyboard ah... aiyo... so bu xi guan de... lol... and the mouse so big... lol... x.x then juz now saw friendster... so shock... haha... royston wish me happy bday eh... lol... so shock... lol... cuz nv really talk to him de... lol... if in any case he can see this... thx ah Royston... ^^
Saturday, September 02, 2006
bday
11:17 PMhmm... today wake up at almost 1... then eat fish soup wit rice... not nice de... x.x then after tat watch cartoon.. watch teen titans and batman... lol... then at 2 go use comp le... hmmm... what did i do then ah... i forget wad i use the comp for le eh... lol... use use then at 3 liddat ba... go bathe and go hospital see Kai Xuan again... she so poor thing sia... see those nurse and doctor keep crying... haiz... then after then at 5+ went back to ah ma house... at nite eating DIY sushi... lol... got those rice and ingredient there... make ur ownself de... hahaha... so fun... so nice... lol... then at 9 they celebrated my birthday for me... lol... 17 liao... in 3 days time la.. haha... haiz... i wan remain 17 leh... dun wan get older liao... >.< this age best le... haiz...
Friday, September 01, 2006
nth much
11:25 PMhaiz... dont have the feeling to blog leh... but still come write a bit ba... today ah yi came... together wit her 2 sons... haiz... still the same... so noti... not size change abit liao... become so super duper fat... zzz... was keeping myself in the room the whole day... cuz i dun wan see that xaiver... then if use comp he sure beside me disturbing... so dun wan la... stay inside room... read comic... haiz... so long nv draw ah... hand rusty le... then at 5+ then they leave... so i go bathe... then found out Kai Xuan in hospital... so at 6+ mummy and i went to see her... poor thing... but nth much also la... her mummy too anxious le... but at nite will be staying in the hospital... they went to toa payoh to eat at 9+... reach home at 10 liddat... then bathe and watch ghost whisperer... haiz... sad story... make me feel a bit depress... cuz something in the show a bit same for me... yesterday nite was thinking alot... saw all the others yesterday at sch... think back to secondary times... at nite keep thinking and thinking... then listen to some songs... then came across some songs... full of memories... then go read back some letters... haiz... didnt know i will still tears when i read the letter with the songs... haiz... didnt know that actually first love can leave so much memory... but like also not first love leh... try out period of 3 weeks... hmmm... does that count as a relationship? but whatever it ish... it sure make a different on my view about relationship... and... probably change me... totally...