Sometime, when one person want something so much, so desperate, so strongly that when he finally got it... It doesn't always feel good. I know it depends on situation and also base on the things you want to get or wish happened.
For the record, I wanted something to happen so badly that I keep hoping and wishing. I think I lost my integrity at some point in time. I focus so much on wanting the bad things to happen and now I suffer from the sinister and evil feelings.
Well, at least everything is over now... and I can just keep this thing at the back of my head. I believe it will constantly remind me that I am not so perfect afterall...