I am actually feeling... I don't exactly knows what I am feeling right now.
This emotion which I never had felt for so long that I wonder if I ever had this feeling before. I don't think I like this feeling at all... not one that I can say that I will get use to... not this feeling.
Everything seems colder than ever. My house with nobody in it. My body without a soul. My heart that lost its need... and you.
I guess I am really sad to know that I won't be the reason for you to want to stay... but instead wanted to leave even more... now I know I can't even be compared to your music.
Yea... I am an ignorant bastard who don't know what is happening around me. I am just too self-centered to notice anything. A person that you can't possibly share anything with. A person that is totally useless in your life... I don't think I can even be compared to your friends. People whom you will be totally happy with... nothing to think about, nothing to be stressed about, nothing to be embarrass about, nothing to be scare about and most importantly, nothing to be ashamed or having the need to hide.
so if I died one day without leaving any trace... will you know why I die?"Once the well is dried up, no matter how good your rope or your bucket is, you won' t be able to draw any water up. You'll have to either
1. Wait for the next raining season (longer) or
2. Fill it up yourself so that you can use it whenever you want to..."and 3. Give up any hope that the well will ever have any water and look for another source...
*i am really trying my best in this relationship... and I can't give you any more love that I am already giving... you won't tell me what to do... and I am at my wits' end...
*i am really tired too... of you keep bringing up problems which I never thought existed... and if you can't see through all these problems you have with the relationship or me or even yourself, I really don't think you will ever be happy...
