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Wednesday, November 26, 2008

...

5:22 PM

I am tired...
so tired that I can't think,
can't breathe,
can't sleep...

I felt loneliness this few days...
so lonely that my shadow starts talking to me,
my soul abandons me,
my body bleeds...

I thought things have changed...
so different that I don't recognize anything,
your kind messages without the warmth before,
my heartless slience with the scary coldness...

I brought this upon to myself...
so irritated that I thought I should die,
then none of these will happen,
then you will be happier...

the time when i couldn't reach you through the phone was the time i lost myself... i couldn't find something which i can hold on to... i am hopeless without you...

Monday, November 17, 2008

9:46 PM

I don't know...

Am I stressing you too much?
Am I doing things that stress you up?
Am I wrong in all the ways I have been?

I don't know what should I do.

You always sound so deep.
Everything on the surface is not what it seems.
Theres a hidden meaning behind everything.

I can't think of what to do.

You turn to your blog when ever something happens.
And the way you put it makes me feel so bad about myself.
It is like I am the source of all your trouble...

Please tell me what to do... ...

Saturday, November 15, 2008

Tourist

10:26 PM

Tourist for the day!

Hahaha~ today had a really long and fun (but quite tired) day! Slept around 4 yesterday night and woke up before 12 today. Then went out with parents and aunt to Tajong Paga Market to have our lunch. Aunt suggested the place as she said there are lots of food choice over there and the foods are cheap and taste good. Indeed, the place has lots of choices and all of them look good... in the end, I ate Yong Tau Foo... which is quite cheap for the amount of stuff I chose and it taste really really good! I especially love the chilli sauce! ^^

After our lunch, we make our way to Chinatown... through which we pass through a lot of shop houses and mini shops. There are actually some interesting stores around which I have no idea they ever existed! Hahaha... when we reached Chinatown, we walk around somemore and then ate some dessert on the way. I had this mango dessert with lots of mango and mango juice as well as some pomelo bits and sago ball. Hahaha~ interesting thing which taste great as well!

Then, we walk to Amoy Street... there are lots of pubs and shops around there as well and also the famous Tian Hock Keng Temple. Often see and heard of this temple from people but never did I went in there before. Today was the first time inside... and the place is quite beautifully kept. Very serene and simple...

The famous Tian Hock Keng Temple... I thought that all the religious structures are really beautifully crafted...

We then walk towards city hall... and on our way there, we came across another temple which is over a hundred years old~ The structure is really beautiful! The sculptures in the wall and the plliar and columns inside the temple are really really beautiful... I am amazed by the artful work!

The beautiful temple... front door. (Look at the top of the roof, there are miniature sculptures on top which are really exquisite!)

Another front view of the temple with my Dad and Mum on the Right...

The courtyard of the temple... those spirals things are incense...

Here is an attempt to take a antique (artistic) photo of the temple... lol~ what do you think?

I would love to take photos of the inside of the temple but it is not allowed... T.T

Upon reaching the Singapore River, we walk through The Fullerton Hotel to reach the Merlion... I must say... the hotel is dashing! Simply beautiful...

Somewhere inside The Fullerton Hotel...

We then walk from the Merlion to The Esplanade via the long pathway along the highway. Along the way, I heard so many different languages and was really thrilled by the sight. People are taking photos at the side of the pathway... and everybody is doing the same thing. But they are speaking in different tongues! I am really interested in the different languages around the world...

We then go all the way to Suntec Convention Center to the International Book Fair organized by Popular Bookstore. There are LOADS of people there! ==" Well, the things are indeed cheaper... but the queues are terrible! We just walk around for abit and went down to another exhibition... The Food Safari and The Home Electronic Fair. There are more people here then the book fair (I guess Singaporean love foods more than anything else... maybe sales? =X). I then bought a medium size Peach Yami Yogurt and a banana Muffin~ Both are really nice. Then I bought a Green Papaya Salad from a thai booth.

After leaving that place, we decided to have dinner already. At first, we thought of going back to Toa Payoh for hawker foods. But in the end, we went to Cafe Cartel at Raffles City! Wahahaha~ I ate the Southern Cripsy Chicken Cutlet with BBQ Sauce... taste so nice! But the portion become much smaller... we then sat and eat and talk for a while before leaving to Raffles City to walk again!

Only after that did we make our way back to Bishan Junction 8. There, my parents went to the NTUC and did some shopping. Then we walk back home from there...

OH MY GOD!! My legs are like super tired now!! But well, I had a really fun day... I felt like a tourist! LOL!

Rees loves this kind of life, where he gets to eat a lot of nice stuff and buy a lot of nice stuff as well... but he knows that it is not possible to get this kind of life now when he is not earning money! So he thought that he is quite satisfied with what he has now, eating something good once in a while, buying things once in a while... but being together is more important now..... ^^

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

The Coffin

6:48 PM

The Coffin

or The Coughing...? =="

Oh well, the movie is quite disappointing.. Not as exciting as what the trailer shows. I must say I got bored some place in the movie. The scary part is not scary at all... everything is predictable and the gore is not gore-y enough. The plot is... okay. ==" nothing interesting lah. Quite a waste of money and time if you ask me. Not satisfied at all and would not recommend people to watch it.

Also, throughout the show... there is this bunch of F**KING noisy brats in front. If I couldn't contain my anger then... I would have shouted at them. People are trying to watch the show but there they are making noises. They are not even watching the movie! Just talking among themselves and shriek once in a while at scenes from the movie. Bloody irritating kids... their parents should be ashamed of how they are acting and should thought if they did their part as parents educating them. Lousy parents, lousy kids...

Rees hates noisy ill-mannered kids...

Sunday, November 09, 2008

Critics everywhere...

11:05 PM

Critics everywhere...

There was a time when a father and a son travel together with their horse from their village to another. The father is on the horse while his son walks by them. Then came a corcern passer-by...

"Poor kid! How could you have let your son walks while you have the luxury of sitting on the horse!?"

So the father came down and let his son ride on the horse. After some distance, another person walks by...

"Dude! How unfillial you are to let your old man walk while you ride comfortably!?"

And so the father got up the horse again, now both of them riding on the horse. This time round, a group of people walk by and started talking loudly...

"Oh my... they are being so cruel to the animal! Poor horse! It has to carry two grown man all by himself! Shame on them!"

Upon hearing all that, both the father and son got down and walk by the horse. Finally, they reached their destination. But to their dismay, the villagers laugh at them...

"How stupid are the two of you!? HAHAHAHA!! You have a horse but you chose to walk by it instead of riding it! HAHAHAHA!! Fools!!"

==" ......... =="

The point here is... no matter what you do, there are bound to have people critising and commenting. One can never please everybody while still do things the way he/she wants to do! I would say, just be who you really are and be happy about it... no use pleasing everyone and be sad yourself in the end. BUT!! There are times which we cannot control... so just do the thing you think is RIGHT!!

and I know I am doing the right thing now...

This time round... I am serious

6:22 PM

This time round... I am serious

I can feel your halo...
I can see them too...
You're my angel...
Pray that halo won't disappear...

Saturday, November 08, 2008

Forbidden Love

10:12 PM

I guess when everything sweet and nice are over, the reality sinks in... We dive into what we had now without thinking of the possible danger and obstacles we will be facing... or at least I didn't thought about it. It is not as easy as everyone else. It is not the same with everybody else. It will be different from all the others... and because of this, we are forbidden to do what we want. We can't celebrate what we have openly. We can't tell our parents of our happiness. We can't share our joy with everybody. Because there are bound to be haters... and at where we are now, the situation is not to our privilege. We have something sacred yet fragile... something which can be broken so easily. I am not confident as to how far we can go... because I wanted so much more. I hate to pretend. I detest vulnerability. I loath myself. YET, I am a pretender... I am vulnerable... I am still me...

Call me mature.. or say I have low self-esteem... Either way, I don't have confidence... I want to be strong and uphold what we have. But please tell me what to do... I need the strength to carry on something so hard and opposed. I have and feel ur love... so i guess it is just me that need to change. I need time to get use to this...

and maybe I will be the best actor then...

I am sorry for being like this...

Thursday, November 06, 2008

Hui Hui Jia You!!

10:23 PM

Specially for Hui Hui...

HUI HUI!! XD This post is made specially for you oh!! You have to jia you for tomorrow de presentation okay!? All of us will be rooting for you!! You will be fabulous!! Don't worry~ ^^ Great job in making this far!! We are all proud of you!! *Thumbs up*

(For those who don't know what this presentation is about, it is the NHG Annual Scientific Congress 2008. Our beloved Hui Hui will be presenting on their project... ONLY her, out of the whole class, will be presenting her project oh!! PRO!!)

As for Lai Yee, be nice kies? Theres a role for "hua ping" also... =X that is to be beautiful~ LOL

Jia you (chinese)!! Ganbatte (japanese)!! Huai tin (korean)!! All the best (english)!!

Monday, November 03, 2008

Sick

7:45 PM

K c iS - Si c K

oh well.. the title speak for me.. ==" ahhhh~ not feeling really great at all!!

It all begins yesterday. Started to sneeze alot, then my nose becomes a faulty tap.. Cough starts to come, and then it finally struck me... FEVER!! T.T

Don't know why but I am not like my normal sick Rees. As in I use to just lie down everywhere I go, and feel very very terrible. But this time round, altough I am really very sick... I still manage to feel alright. Hmmm... weird.

Anyway, I went to Toa Payoh Polyclinic today with his company. The whole process after registering, consult the doctor and finally collect my medicine takes around 1hr in the afternoon. Oh well, not exactly the way I want to spend my day but I do get to pay lesser. ==" It is $14.40... Like increase quite a lot since I last been to a polyclinic (probably 8yrs ago? Lol XD). I never did like polyclinic, but in order to not spend so much, ya, I have to go to one.

I ask about my sudden giddyness and heart pain... and the doc just says that everything is alright~~ ==" thats the problem with government doctor. Everything is alright to them...

I am feeling better now.. just that the drug is still having effect on me... making me drowsy and blur.. hahahaha~ alright~ shall end off here.

Thanks for your company.. don't know what I will do if I am waiting all alone.. =="