today is another one of those kind of days which i realli feel like killing myself...
today realli start out well.. although everyone is tired.. but everybody is still enjoying their first day in tan tock seng.. and i realli enjoy it as well.. but i always have to find reason to let me ruin my own day......
i am a happy person.. as in i can smile easily.. and laugh at every single small thing happening around me.. but why wld someone like this have to get depress at every single small thing as well? i realli hated myself when this happens.. i am not an obtimistic person.. and clearly a pessimist.. but why do i have to see every personal problem as something so big.. something so dreadful.. something which can kill.. i can say all sorts of wonderful things to help ppl get past their problem.. and in some cases convince ppl that things aren't that bad.. but why can't i do that to myself? why do i have to make my own life so difficult?
clearly.. i have problem living with myself.. i hated this guy.. i guess thats why ppl feel the same way..
i am never someone memorable.. i am never important to anyone......
i have never done anything impressive.. i have never done anything which i can be proud of......
nobody remember what i had done before.. nobody appreciate what i had done.......
i think back.. and i guess ppl dont care who i am to them.. cuz my presence realli doesnt bother anyone........
