haiz... getting emo again le... why why why... haiz... these few nites have always been so emo... so sad lor... haiz haiz haiz... sometime i juz wonder lar... why am i doing this to myself... everything will be fine and even happier if euu choose not to know anything abt it... and dont ask... dont care... then ur life will be much happier... haiz... but i am such a loser lar... dun wan to know abt anything that is happening... but i am still so curious to know wad ish happening... wad the hell lar... stupid brain... making mii feel so terrible... AHHH!! haiz... i felt so unwanted... i felt so left out... i felt so stupid... i felt... loneliness... that is... i know there will be ppl ard mii still... like my jie mei... but she cant possibly be ard me all the time... she has got a bf de... she has got her own problem de... haiz... i wonder why do i ever felt this way... the fact that there is ppl ard me... and i still dun think it is enough... am i so greedy? or is it pure evil jealousy... why am i not good enough? why does it seems so easy for some ppl to click with each other... while i nid to take a bloody hell lots of times to make things go my way... sometimes things still dun go my way after that much of work i put in... perhap i am juz giving myself excuses... to make the reader feel sorry for me... yea... maybe i am liddat... wanting ppl to notice me... wanting ppl to pity me... maybe it is not even mayeb... i am liddat... haiz... but that dun work... becuz i dun deserve to be noticed... cuz i am not good enough... cuz i am not fun enough... cuz i am not tat kind of person... ppl wld wanna hang ard me... cuz i am stupid... cuz i am lousy... cuz i am useless.. cuz i am weird... cuz i am not someone else... cuz i am rees... the rees that ppl wont wanna hang out wit... the rees that ppl will nv appreciate... the rees that onli deserve to be kick aside... the rees that belongs to the shadow... the rees tat shld nv ever appear... the rees that nobody likes... this is my fate... the fate that chain mi... the fate that i can nv escape frm... the fate that make me invisible...
